Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile Adeline!, 12021995 I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard Exits 3e'10 Carissa Jermaine Sheree Talia Venessa Venetia Archives November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 Credits ©Glamouresque.	August 31, 2008 my nose is blocked-.- i am having a bad flu... but anw, i am laughing like mad with a retard called grace ang shi qi. hahahahhahahha! making fun of new chers in dlss seems to be fun:D hahaha! and and. being sacarstic with her is damn freaking fun HAHA. mad alr hahahah. lovesss! :D:D i miss the times with you.. BLEAH. i using tissue papers like they are FOC of sth.. like running tap like that luh -.- yoyo, hehe, i whole day nvr use com leh, until now. LOL. first time ok... dots. ya so... woke up at 10am.. damn sleepy. then, eat breakfast, do hw. slack.... then went lot 1 meet yutong, yufan and richelle. ya.. took 307 to cck sports hall watch finals. volleysports girls won:D champ. then guys eh... 2nd. lost to the stupid police team again. -.- bloody hell eh! got one ball, luck spike, then spike liao, fall down, then the police team block dao, then win, then he go stick his stupid tongue at luck!!!! WTF. then mai damn buay song. shld have given red card and get out la! zzz... nvm so ya... next ball, luck spike until damn nice. so we clapped like mad. hahah. and and. we talked like crazy:D ya... went home at like 630.. frm 230 sit there, until 630 eh:D hahas. oh and jayden went too hahahas. he damn cuteeee i tell u, he diao me like lim-.- wdv. LOL hahas. ya nth much:D i wore my ring todayyyyyy hehehe. ahhh. today's dinner damn hot. i eat until i cry -.- LOL. ok... tmr holiday! :D:D haha ok byebye. wednesday, thursday and friday got trng plus friendly. kewllll :D byeeeeeee. i love you darrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :D August 30, 2008 hello. sian. ok now, raining.. zzz LOL. hahas today's friendly was ok. won the first 2 match. which is quite ok:D first match 25-15 second is.. 25-dont know what. LOLs. ya then third match nearly won, 22-25. last match is disaster la, but i dont care, nor i give a shit. cos like last match yingmin and alex sit outside-.- then left me and jerm, and the rest of ppl, so bloody -.- anyhow whack. got one ball i anyhow gou. gou until lim there. -.- they dont want to open their mouths one lo! zzz... i shout like madness. then in the end, jerm pek cek, nvr shout le. after that debrief. zzz sia... talk talk talk lo.. ya thats all, lum talked to jerm damn long. so ya, wait for her then went kfc for lunch. and and i got my ring:D thanks yufannnn:D hehe. then i see, i thought is... one ring, in the end, on the mrt, i take out, 2 rings hooked tgt. then i :O he give me 2 to choose. LOL. hahas is nice:D:D ok.. then went home.... dad sleeping on sofa. yaaaa.. bathed, went lot 1 walk walk. cos samn early, nth to do. lol. so ya... went more than words, mini toons, the bluez, comics connection. kewl. haha. then i looking for keychains ma, so like dont have, then went comics connection find. my gosh. DAMN NICE:D ahha then got one is, 2 tennis rackets, one big one small, then on top of that got lock and key, lock is the guy's one, key is the girl's one. also very nice. but i bought another one. hahas. went homeee. ok seriously, my bill going bao la.. prepared to get a gd scolding frm mama when the bill comes. LOL... die la.... the first thing i am going to say is, i pay my own. LOL. oh and when i going lot 1 that time, i took the wrong bus-.- cos every morning need to cross the road, but is go yew tee, go cck dont need cross road, in the end i crossed -.- took bus. then went 1 big round. actually 15 min can reach lot 1. i spent 1/2 hour -.- ya so.. hmm.. ok so i think i paying this month's bill.. then after pay liao hor, i buy ppc, prepaid. so can msg like siao liao, finish liao, then.. maybe next month;s bill will be lesser. heheh. ya. so will be super broke next month. zzz.... nvm :D ok nth much luh bb:D i love you :D neh, the things:D August 29, 2008 hello! :D ok today teachers' day was.. boring... LOL...though met quite lot of chers.. ya.. celebration was zzz.... oh this morning, i didnt know is 8am starts, then i left home at normal time -.- stupid glenn nvr tell me...zzz ok then, reach there, no one de lo, so slack, draw things.. then fold straw hearts.. ya.. went hall for concert.. got one freaking guy, shld be frm 1c one lo, the whole bunch of guys, throw one fart bomb between 1e and 1f. wtf la. knn. damn pissed off, then all the vulagrities come out. zzz. nvm.. so is damn boring, i coilouring... folding hearts all the wayyy. then dismissed! outside staff rm is... freaking. CROWDED. zzz. so me and yutong finally squeezed our way to the end of staff rm there... wait for the crowd to go off... then.. ya starts finding cher. hhehe. ms ng is damn cute! hahahahaha. :D ok... went nan hua after that. NANHUA IS FREAKING BIG. superb. LOL. hhas. ok.. sat at their audi.. slack. wait for them to come lo.. then suddenly i look up, saw MS SAM! :D:D i was like finding BLACK STOCKINGS in the end she never wear eh! she wore. red and white stripes. hahah! she was like :O when she sees me. hahahahah. damn funny. ok so ya, he went tiong to buy things.. then they came. hah! too bad they cant see him:D haahah. ok.. left nan hua.. went dlss. saw CHERYL, WEITING AND MERABEL! LOL yeehe!! cheryl cheryl cheryl! :D ahhas. they like looking at me and laugh luh.. lol. say i grow up le. hahaha! ok.. ya.. cant really find my chers... :( so.. hmm found 许老师 so talk to her awhile. she so nice! she tells me next time go back see her can le, dont need buy things. hahahs. she seems to grow older :X haha but she is the best:D she says she is touched. cos u know why? she taught me when i was p1, frm that year, i every year give her teacher's day present eh!:D ahahha. ya.. rabby tan also, saw her. but i think she is still bias la. see me, nvr ask how i m doing, only ask wheres grace lee and stuff -.- nvm ahahs ok cant find mr cheng.. heard that he and mr ang are leaving dlss! :O! :( thats sad. mr cheng is sucha gd teacher... hais... nvm.. ok.. then. went marina with yutong. LOL. benjamin is retarded hahas, i tell him i go marina lo, he says ms sam there ah?! -.- dots. ya:D have funnnnn hahahhas. damn funny ahhhhhh. i ate her FA:D:D ok reached home ard.. 8pm. can die, i slept all the way frm marina to cck. now also feel like slping. nvmm.. hahas. i loveeee you:D jet:D August 28, 2008 so sian la now...... ok.. THIRD DAY:D hhehe. ok.. this morning. i was WET. zzz... cos i walked frm acs bus stop to sch again, then at first the rain damn small... so i walk... suddenly, the stupid rain, suddenly pour down eh! wth?! then i waiting for the traffic to turn green ma. omg la, then i use my box file to shelter.. but still. WET. zzz. RUN to sch eh.... then my head, everything. wet. -.- the maths hw, also a little wet. zzz....... ya then... go find yutong.... yea.. went up for chinese... chen lao shi haven come yet. LOLS. so damn slack, until like 10min after bell rang, she come. LOL.. so yea... me, lungs, carissa were like talking lo. LOL. then he like. aiya nvm hahas, we talking eh.. then okky was there! BLEAH.... LOL... pass letter to carissa. HAHA. then.. erm.. nth much.. maths... do work lo.. LOL.. recess. went down to take straws HAHA. asked deb to teach me how to fold. LOL... ya.. then.. OH. chinese get back result. HIGHEST:D WHOO. 82... crystal toh 80.. she buay song. -.- lalalala! LOL. carissa! :D this is CA2 only most impt is EOY:D JYJY:D ya soo.. recess nth much... PHYSICS was. ZZZ! JO... BLEAH... she really damn what, we finished everything alr lo, then at first we slacking, then she asked us to do what ppt for terminal velocity-.- what the hell.... so do.... then i sit behind ma, she suddenly turn behind and says, i hope u are doing what u suppose to do ah....then i say, I DO FINISHED ALR! ZZZ! then she says, ok good. -.- bloody hell. nvm so bio...mr firhad came. caught me copying geog eh.. so he says, keep everything else... keep lo... zzz. so sleepy alr sia... ya then... he wear the shirt very CUTE:D ahahah! got a lot of chickens HAHA, then carissa tellhim, MR FIRHAD, ur shirt very cute! haha then he says, YES.... THIS IS MY FAVOURITE SHIRT WHOCH MY WIFE BOUGHT FOR ME, IT IS CALLED THE CHICKEN SHIRT. hahah! LOL! laugh like crap la! he say until damn funny! hahaha. GEOG was. ZZZ! nth much la... lol.... lifeskills.... also nth eh.... talk abt... EOY, then the interclass games... WHOO. sarah in caps! :D:D rocks... haha. and and! i got A1 for maths! A2 for sci! :D 3As nowww! :D:D:D after school, yutong came my class find me, then went off.. go canteen, find yufan, drink, then went home. LOL.. saw okky at the traffic lights, but dont care. hahahahah! LOL. took bus with them.. yep... nth much le.... teachers day tmr, haven even do a single card yet. bleah..... doing now. LOL BB. he sick eh.. TAKE CAREEEE :D better rest early tonight. hahahs. :D ich liebe dich August 27, 2008 hello :D hahas. hmm back. d&t damn sian. mr choy says i need to do more... ok lo... LOL... ya so after school, went big bookshop with yutong, fel and hm. whoa, we stay there for damn long, looking at cards and stuff. yaaaaa... went sumo eat after that... went home:D ok, on the way, yutong bought one magazine, she claims is for me:D LOL! -.-but that magazine is damn.. LOL ok.. so ya... took mrt with hm... reached cck, got yogurt eat again hahah! so siannnn.... ok yea, today... i kena said by ms sheena that i m racist. LOL.... bleah who cares.... sianess. LOL. oh and today caps was DAMN FUN. WHOO :D played with the boys. they are damn good la. one person mark one of us leh.. like basketball like that. can die. somemore mine is like.... nat, okky, mark, all come and block me. ZZZ cos i run here run there. hahahahah. maths olympiad was hard like gay. i did 5 questions out of 12. -- LOL. ok... geog was boring as usual zzz. ok nth much liao.. ok la, i dont feel like blogging alr eh..... hahas. LOL. sorryyyyy. didnt know u msg me. ahh. shit. hahas. :D:D:D je t'aime! i am touched by your words. so sian, ok.. now in class:D LOL..... 1.25pm. sian... mr choy says i needa work more. -.- raining now....... like quite heavily.. LOL... nth to do la. zzz. sian sian hahahahs. ok bb. go home liao then post.... August 26, 2008 yoyoyo. ok my legs are like dead alr luh.. i dont even feel like moving now.. eyes closing also... zzz... oook but i promised, i must love today no matter what. hahha. so yea... morning.... msg msg msg him him him!:D ahh. he sickkk. :( still insist on going sch. hahhas ya.. msggggggggg reached sch freaking early. yea. saw him him himmm. hahahhahs, ok go yutong's lockerrrr. then. assembly.. so sian... first period chinesee.. ok la....... LOL... chapel was funny. the topic is like damn 准, talk abt bgr.. LOL damn de lame. hahaha... aiya i dont want post leh, go chiong d&t alr.. byebye. my legs are achingggggg....... :( hahas. JE T'aime!!! August 25, 2008 hoho. LOL... ok.. today was damn fast i tell u, suddenly... eh! 1 hour more then sch over alr eh... LOL.. yea so.. this morning went sch by myself. mom sent me down to bus stop.. yea.. so ok, my mom ask me wear jacket ma.. so she help me with my sch bag first lo.. i wear. then when i reached out my hands to put into the jacket, got one woman just nice walk past me eh. then she like shorter than me la, so i SLAP HER FACE. -.- LOL. then she stare at me, then my mom like opps... sorry sorry.. i also la! LOL. but who cares la. then after a while my mom says, where got ppl walk behind a person who is wearing a jacket one. 自找 lo. haha LOL! damn funny... then reach there.. ok ba..... yea music sux totally ok... zzz mrs lim lo! kns. then we all act as if we dont know today got test. i tell u, everyone sure FAIL/ FLUNG lol. is like damn difficult. i tikam all the way ok... ZZZ ask me classical or baroque. -.- go ask the person who create la.. ZZZ lame shit. then after collect paper alr, still dont want release us leh! WTF. talk talk and talk. ZZZ then i chiong to chinese.. then ms chin ask me and carissa why 1e ppl so late, then we say exactly the same thing. "那个老师 la! 讲讲讲!!!! wa we say exaclty same ok. hahah! then the 1f ppl laugh. then she like. 哪一个？then we say at the same time again. 那个 MRS LIM LO! then ok, 1e ppl come liao, so we stop talking. haha damn fun.... then then, grp work. wa i feel like scolding her u know. zzz! say my questions very easy to answer, u know i spent so much time thinking not. ownself didnt even do, still dare to criticise mine. 早死 LOL. ok nvm, paired with okky to do other grp's question... yea... then oh despo's grp is pathetic, their questions all the same de, then they suddenly change one question. i shout, THATS CRAP -.- give the diao face, then look at ms chin, then she smile at me. HAHA. :P but she still says can answer. wdv. haha me and okky can answer eh. nani nani poopoo. LOL. -.- recess... go sit with yutong at cca block. ya.. then went back class..... go ms ecoli's lesson again. whoo. our control is pretty well done:D haha. then......... maths... MATHS TEST. got a bloody 27/30. ACTUALLY 29!!!! argh! becuase of that freaking reasonings, i minus 2 marks. -.- wth...... zzzzzzzzzzzz. ccitp next ok ba..... hahas.... then when went back class, saw 1f ppl. lungs told me, dao him went back class. hahahah. jkjk. hahah yea.. then... classcontact was abt survey. lame. anyhow do la, dismissed. hahah. find yutong. she got remedial. so ya, wait for her, then hm joined me. after a while, boy's trng starts. hahah! go find yg!!! :D:D play ball. haha. yutong joined us ltr... then got 2 thai guys came. haha. one is hot, the other looks funny. hahahha. ya.. .play small court with yg, hm and yt!! :D:D haha. damn fun luh. though we wearing sch u. hahahas. ok nvm.. went home.... yea. msg msg msg. tmr got trngg!!! :D:D i tell u, no matter what happen tmr, i shall love it. hahahah! :D reach home... mom says i owe caning-.- wdv.... zzz, she ask me look at the clock -.- like i also dont have hw what.... play a while relax cnt meh -.- zzz. lameo. who cares.... bathe, then eat, print things, then... online. ya.. whoo. fri teachers day... thinking what i shld giveee. going nan hua.... yea. ok thats all bb. ti amo! :D August 24, 2008 Do you think you're wasting your time on the person you like? Nope Can you fill this out without lying? yupp What's the last thing you put in your mouth? erm.. drink.. Have you ever kissed anyone named Timothy? NO. -.- Last people you rode in a car with under the age of 21? yutong and yufan Name someone that made you laugh today? GRACE:D What are you doing now?nahthing but this quiz. When was the last time you saw number 6 on your top friends? jet? ytd? lols... How late did you stay up last night and why?10pm.. cause i got a headahce? lol. Ever been kissed under fireworks? LOL. hello, sg has fireworks only on special occasions.. Which of your friends lives closest to you?hmm.. supposed to be celest, but she moved.. so grace? Do you believe exes can be friends?ya duh... What was the last thing someone bought for you? er... that will be damn long ago... When is your birthday?12 feb Who took your profile picture??whats that? LOL Who was the last person you took a picture with?er... yutong? or is it grace? Was yesterday better than today? yes. definitely Can you live a day without TV? actually can eh... i haven sit on the sofa for damn long alr. What are you listening to? jay chou's songs Is anything bothering you right now?yea... a lot.. Are you happier single or in a relationship?er... must see la.. lol. Where's the last place you went swimming?cck swimming complex, swimming lesson. Ever want to get married?maybe lo Who was the last person you hugged?Carissa? LOL What plans do you have for tomorrow?study study and study. nth much... Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed? on the sofa. How are things between you and your friends?ok ba... Do you forgive and forget?yea... for those that are not serious la.. What is more important, happiness or trust? Trust Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level? Reasonable How did you and your number 1 become friends ?erm... since p1! thats why i say, she is the best of bestest. haha. first sentence that make us become friends is " got bring wooden ruler?" What's the connection between you and the last person you texted? got 2 ppl eh. but both are friends la.. jet and yutong:D Do you hate the last person you were talking to?No, my daddy What does your 8th text message say? ahaha i dont want say, its private hello... What's the very first thing you do when you wake up? open my eyes and check hp. Do you fold your laundry?sometimes Do you even KNOW how to do the laundry?yea a little, in thailand haha! Most memorable thing that's happened to you this summer? er... dont want say -.- LOL Who's the last person that told you they loved you?hehe is it grace? ahha! forgot la. When's the last time you had a headache?ytd. When did you get your very first kiss?LOL...... Do you like reading?No Were you ever made fun of? yes... of my height -.- What's/Who's always there to get you through the day?best friends? What are you hoping to get this Christmas?HANDPHONE. Do you ever think about stuff and start crying? yes. p6 happy times. Favorite swear word?damnit... i shant say more. haha Ever spin around in circles until you got so dizzy you fell?LOL... hahaha maybe last year? dont know. What's the most comfortable thing you own?? my bed. Do wear the hood on your hoodie?Dont have one. How long does it take for you to take a shower?ard... 15 min.... Have you ever stolen a sign from a street?NO -.- What was the last thing you were thinking about?are we officially? If you could change your MIDDLE name, what would it be? i wont and i never. Is the moon out right now?Yes, its suppose to, but i cant see it. hello, its only 530pm.. What's the heaviest thing you own, besides a car? i dont even have a car -.- dont know. Do you live on your own?Obviously not. Whose car were you in last?the lee's (yutong's) haha What's your relationship status?Single-.- Who was the last person to kiss you?i dont know. no one? haha When was the last time you held hands with someone?hmm... i think is carissa eh.... haha forgot. Do you have a crush/like someone right now? er.. ya? Have you ever wished upon a star for a certain someone?yea... What was the weirdest moment with you and your bf/gf? dont have one yet. Is love even real to you?Yes. Warm up near a fire or cuddle under the stars?dont have Who is the person you regret being/doing something with the most? not sure.. Most romantic: flowers or chocolate? chocolate? eh.. dont know leh.. If single... are you looking around?Nope, cos i found alr If taken... are you happy?waiting in progress. LOL. 1.The person who tag you is. GRACE:D(actually is i go her blog) LOL 2.Your relationship with him/her . the best best best of bestest! :D love her to bits! 3.Your five impression about him/her Caring? AHA cheerful, nicest to me, the chio one, THE BEST:D 4.The most memorable thing him/her had done for you .cheer me up and be there for me:D LOL 5.The most memorable thing that him/she had said to you .adeline, ily, its undeniable. LOL 6.If he/she become your lover , you will . hmm.. i am alr hers. haha! but i m straight duh:D 7. If she/him become your lover , things she/him should improvve on .NAHTHING :D she is near perfect! 8.If she/him become your enermy, you will. i will be damn damn damn sad. but she wont:D 9.If she/him become your enermy , what is the reason . she has become heartless, that will nvr nvr happen. hehe 10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is . meet her up and take loads of pictures! 11.Your overall impression of him/her .best of bestest 12.How do you think the people around you feel about you . how would i know? 13.On the contrary , the characters you hate about yourself .easily get jealous? lolol 14.The characters you love yourself is .dont know.. 15.The most ideal person you want to be is . carefree person LOL 16.People thats care and like you , say something to them. thanks for being there for me? LOL 17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feeling about you . 1. Grace 2. sue mae 3. yutong 4. jermaine 5. eleanor 6. jet 7. sheree 8. carissa 9. charis 10. lyanne 18. who is no.6 having relationship with? ?! i dont know? LOL 19.is no.9 a male or female ? male? LOL! ahha no la.. female. -.- hahah 20.If no.7 and no.10 are together , will it be a good thing ?LOL no way! they arent LES! 21.Whats is no.2 studying about ? er.... same as me la duh, but then maybe nhhs chimmer. haha! 22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3 ?haha JUST. she just msg me. LOL 23.What kind of music does no.8 like ? I KNOW. GAZETTE -.- which i dont know anything abt that.. LOL 24.Does no.1 have any siblings ? haveeee. this is a secret. few peeps know nia. haha 25.Will you woo no.3 ? :O! HELLO i m straight. 26.How about no.7 ? we both are straight HAHA 27.is no.4 single ? HAHA i dont know? shld be.. 28.What is the surname of no.5 ? toh 29.Whats the hobby of no.10 ? er.. er... idk... but i know she likes to play 5 by 5 cube 30.does no.5 and no.9 get along well ? LOL dont even know each other eh.. 31.Where is no.2 studying at ? nan hua high school 32.Talk about something actually about no.1 . nor.. up there... 33.Have you try developing feelings for no.8? HAAH we are alr very very very gd haha 34.Where does no.9 live at ? eh... near fmss.. but dont know exactly where... 35.what colour does no.4 like ? hmm... actually i dont really know.. black? 36.Are no.5 and no.1 bestfriend ? LOL. no. they dont even know each other. 37.Does no.1 have any pets . hmm... eh... fish have not? yea i think got fish ba.. 38.is no.7 the sexiest person in the world ? HAHA if i say yes,she will kill me! haha 39.What is no.10 doing now ?i suppose, chionging her art hw. hahahha what a long quiz... bleah, woke up at 9am, do hw... now finished. left those dragged ones.. zzz.... YAY i love grace to bitsss! :D SHE ROCKED MY LIFE THE BEST BEST BEST OF BESTEST! hehe. thanks grace:D thanks carissa too:D ok... hmm... wait ba:D hahas. tags: carissa: haha. elmo and winnie. hehe. ok. ily too:D grace: boooo. hahas, hmm MAYBE. ahha it is still a maybe. LOL. hahaha. thanks for talking to me, cheering me upppp:D ilyyy! meet up soon aye! :D August 23, 2008 ok firstly, today, friendly match.... first 2 matches damn shit. LOL... kena thrashed. then after that i went in? or second match i went in? i forgot. ya so played setter... yea... subset after that. zugong.. yea... quite ok leh... lost 4-2 ya, i think only 1st match i didnt play. the rest got. LOL... after that, c boys match. they won... dont know how many sets la. LOL..yea, after that, b girls match. they lost? ya. by that time, i like half dead. cos when we went shuqun, it was raining. walked in the rain. and is freaking heavy. then, reached there, socks wet alr leh. LOL. nvm then alex accidentally pured mango juice on my shoe, leg, who leg smell of that sweet drink. use her shirt to wipe my leg, went toilet.. zz. so after match i take out my shoe and socks immediately la. zzz wh says now only me and alex can be setter, but he says, 往长远的打算, honestly speaking, i need a tall setter. lol. -.- ok nvm... so yea... he says he seldom train me, simin, yingmin, but we still can at least make the ball up, -.- duh right. still dare to say nvr train me kns. so after that play ball with jer, ym and heidi. ok.. ya went down to the toilet. then saw him sitting there. alone. LOL.. nvm.. went up msg him. waiting for his mom -.- LOL. ok.. after that. yutongs mom came. the shuqun gate locked -.- yutong climbed out. then bingzhao came and open the gate for us. lol. dont know why the hell they locked it la, when there are still ppl inside. zzz alighted at je, took mrt home. wa i diao ppl all the way home. zzz. freaking tired la. zzz. ok. somehow, i m disappointed. today is a bad day. my heart is aching like mad. i assumed everything when it is only a maybe. August 22, 2008 hello. LOL. ok firstly I LOVE TODAY. haha. bleah. though lessons are boring as usual. LOL... ok this morning. sickening, i woke up at 640 u know... LOL... jump up, chion to bathe, then faster eat, pack bag. LOL. then he walao eh.. ok la, quite fast, but then, he sit there and STONE. wthell! then mom dont want open door for me go, ask me wait for him. -.- zzz! nvm lo. wait then wait. zzz. my face is completely black. lol. ok reached sch just nice. LOL.. ya... went find yutongggg. then assembly. oh then suddenly rain, so went back class for devotion. lol. eng was ok? LOL... joshia brought a snake. fake one duh. hahahha. ok.. ya play with it.. then... maths. do the cuboid thing again. can die la. LOL. i change the dimensions last min! then must redo the calculation u know. LOL. ya so decorate it. fun:D ok la.. only decoration fun. then no time to give back maths paper. LOL. recess. didnt go down luh... i went toilet, walk past the kitchen, saw ying min and simin. so stood outside and talk to them i ate one of simin's cucumbers. hahahha. ya... chinese...... ok? LOL... not bad la.... fei test was easy? LOL. haha quite ba... the questions same as last time one lo; LOLS. eng was FUN! hahah! news reporting. hahaah! :D:D i love kns to bitsss! haha. oh and meipeng IS DAMN FUNNY I TELL U. AHHAHAHAHA. her reaction is damn funnyyyyyyy! hhahahaha is damn funny, cos auditorium the chairs will auto go up when stand up ma, then right, hers wont. so she like :O!!! her face really like that eh!!! then we laugh like mad! OMG! HAHHAHAHA! then she faster push up the chair. then rebounce back then she push again! HAHHA. OMG. i now also laughing la! HAHAHAHAH. ltr dad thinks i crazy. hahah! okkkk. then.. geog -.- TEST. zzz!!!!!! oh before that, need to hand in the stupid map thingy, which i didnt do la. dont know how ma. LOL... then, i tell her, she like, adeline.... i say what? i telling u i didnt bring, she says, pull up ur tie. -.- wth. ok test. i write bloody 1 page only, i see the other ppl write, like one whole page FULL. behind also a bit full .LOL. DIE LA... ok nvm..... then... oh i stay in class finish my maths. yutong still in her chem class. haha i went down, she just nice dismissed. LOL. so ya.... went down with her, then eat then, slack... went up call mr lum, take ball, play! :D:D shit them la. first is what nccc, then bb, then gb. -.- then the xu hui also. zzzz. keep saying and saying. lastly jo. ZZZ! suck leh. LOL... lame then went home........... rainn! SHIOK. ahahha. ya on thw ay play tongue twisters with her. hahah. damn funny. LOL... ok nvm. i feel like sleeping alr. is only 9pm -.- LOL... I LOVE TODAY. ahahahha. 220808. :D i love you. August 21, 2008 hellooooooo. LOL. today was tiring.... sleepy. morning, chinese.... was okay? maths.... was quite fun la... but very lame.. cos need to construct own cuboid.. need measure this measure that... very troublesome luh... ya after that, ms ng went to help us take scissors, then.... ard 940 like that, went to help us take plastic holders and file again. ya then during that time, gerald and zhou zhi, left their seats.. then when ms ng came back, she like volcano erupted like that. "GET OUT!" she screamed lo. is damn freaking loud la... then after dismissing our class, she go outside and shout at them. damn scary luh.... LOL recess. did geog.... ya, then then... physics was ok.... did experiment. quite fun... thean yien brought weights. super cute weights sia. hahahaha. got big, medium, small, tiny. hahha! ya so we run up and down luh... hehehe. ok after that, bio. quite interesting. better than malvin chan. cos like... mr firhad wont let us talk or what, then make us very focussed. so i understand what he talking:D geog was argh. can sleep la. walao seriously. her lessons are wth la.... zzz..... after geog was lifeskills. haha. presentation again..... ya. so ok nth much... went eat with yutong and huimin. then went home. me and huimin slept on the mrt... like just... suddenly nvr talk, then i sleep, she also fell aslp. lol. lucky i woke up at cck station. lol... went pasamalam with her.. buy sausage went home.... reached home have 5 min, she started scolding him alr. zzz! who ask him game game and game.. so sian... freak u lungs. argh. wthell la u. zzz! lameo. ok ao ya carissa, i freaked out. seriously. lol... I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. August 20, 2008 yoyo LOL... today was damn sian.. zzz. morning. reached sch damn late. going assembly then i steped into the school. LOL. ya, i only know my face was super black in the morning. LOL. ppl keep pushing my bag! wthell! so heavy alr u know. LOL. ya so they push me, i purposely dont move. see what they going do. zz! pe was.. ok. played caps! :D shiok i tell u. my team rocksss! haha. thrashed them la. LOL! they a bit the.. lousy. :X LOL. play until damn shiok ok. hahas. maths olympliad was... haha. ok la. but boring. next week got test. LOL... recess. i chionged geog. ya.. then, eat... geog was gay. stupid. mrs choe was damn what la... i just started day dreaming only, then she woke me up. -.- she says, adeline... are u with me? hope so! then give that buck toothed face. act cute-.- wthell. zzz! LOL... eng was fun! we went audi again. taboo grp. hahah. joshua and mark were the insane ppl, then me and sheree were just passer bys who keep saying SIAO WAN. hahaha! LOL. then... when FPC stands up that time, the chair nvr sutomatically go up! HAHHA. means what, she heavy la! HAHAHAH. then the chair stuck there. OMG damn funny la! haha then when carissa go act that time, me and charis go put our legs there to stop her chair frm going up also. then when carissa comes up, she was like :O!!!! then faster sit down. then me and charis LAUGHED LIKE CRAZY. sheree, deb and lyanne also. AHHAHA OMG laughed like SIAO!!!! then ms sheena ask me stop laughing HAHAHA. kena chased by carissa. then i cnt control anymore, i bom on the floor outside first level lab. then laugh AHAHHA. ok then DNT. sian i do my work okk..... hahah. then ya played games with sarah on msn. hahahah. yea fun. damn sian lo... after school, went opp eat with yt and hm. then went home. LOL. yea, GET WELL SOON YT! :D hahahahha. ok i m mad. hahahah! byebye:D August 19, 2008 yoooo. ok today was boring.. zzz. tiring also. chapel was. zzz. in LT. then the stupid 1f cher go complain to ms tai that me, carissa and sheree talked -.- wthell. zzz. then in the end, we need stay back check got rubbish not. -.- damn lame la. eng was ok... ya did taboo thingy again.. chem was all abt presentation. physics was slack. i did nth but slack. surfing the net, she says, is my lessons that dry...? then i YESS the loudest LOL. then she says can stand up and walk ard if we want, but cnt talk. then whats the point lo. lol maths... ms ng nvr come. one idiot cher come. he dont k=even know what ms ng wants us to do. then keep say what, go heymaths, online lesson then submit at the end of lesson. then we ???! submit what?! submit the online lesson ah? ZZZ so in the end, we nvr do. just slack... friendly was horrible. 不堪设想 lost 4-0. freaking hell dont want open their mouths and shout. whats their problemmmmmm. we all shout like retards, then u all still dont want help us -.- damn shit. then whats the point of having only 2 to 3 ppl in a team who are shouting? must well dont shout right. zzz. went back school, thought can play. in the end, nvr, just went home with yutong. ya ok. i very dizzy. headache coming. ahhhhhhhhhhh. bye. August 18, 2008 today was ok. theres milk spilled on the train. and oh, i saw joanna ong. -.- i was reading my chinese.. then suddenly look at my left, saw her face -.- then she saw me la, so i can sense she keep staring at me la! what the hell! zzz. so i gei gei didnt see her all the way. zz. oh assembly was funny. HAHA. cos carissa tripped over some bags, then just nice vsim was there, then i thought what, WAH VANESSA SIM THE LEG GOT THAT LONG TO TRIP HER AH! SOMEMORE HER LEG VERY STIFF, so i thought is her leg, in the end, carissa went shouting, rachel IS THAT UR BAG! HAHA. OMG DAMN FUNNY LA. i laughed like crap. music and art was SHIT. mdm lim spent like 1 1/2 period scolding us. LIKE WTF? ZZZ she scuks totally la. then ask us redo one wrksht. ZZZ. i got write so much very good alr leh! i dont care correct or wrong, i got write very the good alr sia! then ask us redo! go and f*cking die. :X chinese. ok la. gave back test. highest. 41.5. :D happy luh, but not very high seh. zzz. carissa, CHEER UP :D TRY HARDER NEXT TIME LUH! MOST IMPT IS YEAR END. JIAYOU! :D recess. went buy food. came up. went lab, do the chin chow thingy. ya, we failed once again. forget put e coli -.- LOL. so ya do again lo. ok its gross. seriously. LOL. cos we mashed the chin chow. LOL. ok nvm.. ya so maths. was boring. i didnt really listen. 听不进 dont know what i keep thinking also. soo... ccitp. damn funnny. cos mr lee showed my screen on top, then i dont know, so i was like, EH! why that person move the mouse same direction as me de! then i realise its my com -.- WTH. ok so like no freedom luh. zzz. then i told carissa abt what i dreamt ytd. ok its terrible. somewhat la. LOL... so ya. we stayed back to finish our work, hmm.. no no. more like slacking. cos dont want go cc. so... slack. then went back class, ms tai nvr come in, relief cher came. wa seh! shiok daooo. LOL. do own work lo, then they gaming -.- LOL. i go kajiao SOMEONE who is playing neo. wth so big alr play! ZZZ. then that stupid sarah LAUGHED SO DAMN LOUD! then she turned ard. LOL. hahaha. then she faster turn off the com -.- HAHAHA. ya after that, went home with yutong. very sian la. i was literally falling aslp ok. LOL. ya so reached home, on com. haven do work yet.... sian... why are there so many workkkkk. :( i hate this class... but i love the kns. sianess... ok my dream, i dreamt of someone. SOMEONE. then, is like damn lame la, is i go eat in the canteen with kns. then, i forget bring my bag up, then the lesson going start alr, like the cher come alr la, then thats when that SOMEONE came in to the dream, he like, console me, LOL! then, help me chiong down to the canteen and bring it up for me, LOL. wth! damn lame right. but i think this dream will only happen when me and that person tgt. LOL then when i tell carissa, she like. :O! so romantic! LOL. ZZZ! this feeling kinda sucks... i just dont understand, i cant differentiate who is the one that i actually like the most. its so hard to decide. its aching... August 17, 2008 :D on our way to pulau ubin :D aiya, i lazy post more. LOL. byebye. woots, now raining HEAVILY. swimming pool closed! hahahah! so dont need go lo. LOL morning went watch open cup with yutong. LOL. she was like asking if jermaine is going, then i say. she SHOULD be sleeping now. haha in the end, she is. -.- hahah. LOL. ya so... volleysports lost. 3-2. i saw kun han there! hoho. he damn tall luh, lol. lim saw me, i dont know what to call. so keep quiet lol. ya after that, went yutong's hse... eat lunch there, then, went watch movie with yufan and yutong. LOL. money no enough2. damn the touching luh! LOL. also DAMN funny. yutong laughed like crazy when they say, GONG GONG TOOT TOOT. LOL! hahahah. ya, until the ah ma die that part. damn touching. LOL. after that went home lo. then i tell my mom abt the show, she like, i want go watch alr! hahah! LOL. then i tell her how lim dao me, she says, cos i nvr call him -.- no lo! he everytime give me that face, like i owe him like that -.- ok la, end here, i THINK i finished my work lol. finally. though we seem so close, yet i can feel that we are drifting away. August 16, 2008 I AM TIRED. 3 words to describe. LOL. legs aching!!! argh, like that how to swim tmr la. sian.. ok... trng outdoor with boys today. ran 10 rounds. underhand. formation. ok our c girls formation is pathetic. zzz. at first la, but after a while, quite ok liao... zzz tue friendly with hillgorve b girls. will see wei ting! LOL... yea, but then. ya, postition not confirmed yet. that faggot any how put one. zzz. sian la, i must buck up my service lo, like must every ball over. then maybe still got chance to play. sian Sian SIan SIAn SIAN! ahhhhhhhhh.. i want sleep. hehe. oh ya, just now rained. and me fel and yt talking abt condoms. HAHA. damn damn funny la. HAHAH. omggg. we took plastic bags as condoms. HAHAHAHAH. omg funny. LOL ok nth much, i fell aslp on train. thats all. things arent get any better, i m still stuck in the middle. not knowing what to do. August 15, 2008 wa tired la! ZZZ. msn keep dc-ing me. ZZZ. trng was tired today la. PT PT AND PT. can die. morning was ok, eng, went auditorium lo.... do the taboo groups and stuff, then was maths? ya test. is quite easy la. not sure can get high marks not leh.... zzz. i took my own sweet time do, still half an hour early. LOL. ya, then, recess. went down. damn lot of ppl, inculding sec4.. ZZZ. then dont eat alr la, the queue so damn bloody long. ZZZ. so went up, chineseeeeeeeee. ok chinese was fun? ya, i laughed like crazy la! LOL. THAT retard keep staring at me, then i use my tb cover my face, HE STILL KEEP CONTINUE TO STARE LEH. wthell la. zzz, then me and jaime keep looking at each other, then i saw huimin, giving him that irritated look, I LAUGHED even more la, then lungs thought i crazy, then i tell him liao, he also laughed. LOL. omggg, then cher ask me go up there present my grp's work. -.- LOL. HAHAH. ya, then.............. enlish again! ok i screwed that up seh. PAISEH CARISSA, SHEREE AND CHARIS... SORRYY..... i couldnt rmb my poems lines. AHH i m so sorry luh... but is still ok la. is damn fun though. LOL.... ya, then geog -.- zzz, i hate choe la! she sux. finally dismissed us, then went find yt... eat then ya, wait lo... for trng -.- ok then they carried the poles out, then the BB guy go carry BACK. HAHAHA. omg retarded! ya then ya, trng starts... tired like freak la! ZZZ. underhand, PT. chiong like siao ok. wthell. tired like some shit. somemore leg damn pain. then after trng, buy bbt, went home. can die la, my bag heavy like gay. then like cnt walk like that. ZZZ ok mrt was. disgusting. zzz banglas are looking at me -.- lol. then reached cck, saw a lot of peepos! :D elizabeth... KAIJIE! LOL. YANGLONG-.- ya... and last time the head prefect. LOL. ya and kaijie's voice CHANGED. hahah. damn scary luh, so damn low. ya then... oh i cant open my door just now, i stand there like retard like that, turn the key left and right, then cnt open! omg, finally canopen, i locked the doors and stick onto the sofa, didnt move for maybe half hour ok. then go shower.... ya online ok bye. i want sleep la. so freaky tired. August 14, 2008 yoyo! LOL. ok today was not very gd lo. zzz! but fun like ytd. HAHA. this morning, took 166? the single deck one. OMG. can die la! so squeezy ma, somemore infront, very cramp. then walao! i cnt stand properly la! the bus turn i also turn! then turning to acs there, i BOM on one of them sitting down sia! wth, then my legs wobbling, like no strength like that, then everyone looking at me. wthell? nth for me to hold what! of cos will fall right! hmph. then acs that bus stop, i zao alr. SCARY LA. wth. nvm, so ya... assembly.... then, CHINESE! :D i love chinese! haha. ok... ya grp work again lo, but china cher didnt come, yea... hehe mathssss. WHOO CHINA CHERS CAME. sit behind! omgggg. directly behind me la. then WHOLE ROW of chers behind. ZZZ. then got one of them come sit with me, ask this ask that. i tell u, his eng CMI. i dont understand. then i say, 可以用华语讲吗？then he says, oh u know chinese? WTH! do i look like I DONT?! my hmt text book on the table u know! look down on me! i bet he thinks i m malay lo. zzz. ya ask ask ask. zzz. this is THE VERY FIRST TIME, i pay so much attention in maths class like omg la, I SIT UP RIGHT, then listen! hahah! then at the end of lesson, he ask me write ng may gay's chinese name. HOW I KNOW! HAHA. then i write ms ng, then he says, got chinese name? then surname? i say. errrr. is either, 黄 or 吴 cos national day that day she tell us is 吴 but not sure la. LOL. then he ask me write my chinese name, dots, then i write finish, he says, 你的父母是从中国来的吗？then i :O! NO!!! then he says, 大陆 or sth like that la, then i say NONO! omg, do i look like one?! LOL. then recess. LOL. went down with sheree buy nutella snadwich for carissa and charis. LOL. physics, went lab. ZZZ. JO sux la. ZZZ she says, come physics lesson dont need calculator wan ah? then i shoot her la, but i think she nvr hear, zz i say, WALAO, U GOT SAY NEED TO BRING CALCULATOR MEH? YOU ONLY SAY PENCIL CASE RIGHT. ZZZ, retarded! haha, then bio. omg, boring like hell. talked abt DNA. cool la. hahah. cos got one DNA ah, call ADENINE. AHHA. then i dozing off, suddenly hear this name, i wake up. LOL. then, got one is thynine, or sth like that la, then the stupid shawn low, says, adeline and thean yien lo. ZZZ. -.- lame shitto. LOL. GEOG WAS ARGH. mrs choe really wth la! ZZZ. she keep saying me wan la! wthell! first ask me stand up, answer question, then i cnt answer what. LOL. then i stand for a while, then she says, sit down, next time get ready, u are not ready for lessons just now. like wdv! -.- then i didnt really listen la, i drawing on my sketch book ma, then mrs choe says, ADELINE LOOKS REALLY BORED, see she is colouring -.-. hellloooooo i am drawing. NOT COLOURING. zzz. then keep pronouncing carissa and charis name wrong wan lo! ZZZ. hate her la! HMPH LS was FUNNY. we did our skit. it was screwed up though. haha sry guys. LOL. kns lovables are loved! :D:D:D hahahah. after school, find yutong, then met huimin, she bai ka alr. LOL. ya then eat opp, went yutong's hse. LOL. ya then went home. I FELL ASLP WHILE STANDING. pro right! hahaha! LOL. sianess... it has been a long time since we talked. hmm.. i guess we arent supposed to be tgt. i dont know.. sometimes, i like him, sometimes, i dont really like him. i dont knowwww.... hais.... hais.... hais! August 13, 2008 yohhhh! haha, ok i m quite high HAAHA. today was great, but sleepy. hahah. but is GREAT. AWESOME. LOL. haha laughed like crazy la. like every period also laughed until stomach pain. LOL. haha ok, er.. PE first period. tennis AGAIN... ok play lo, ya that the stupid MATTHEW WOO go action, take MY TENNIS BALL. stupid la. then carissa damn pissed off. hugged me. HAHA. :D:D ya. ok, so we play lo, PE not really very fun, but mr lee in front talking, me, sarah, sheree, lyanne, deb behind chatting. HAHA LOL sia. then mr lee keep asking me to organise MY grp. at first also not i captain wan lo. zzz nvm, so ya... math olympiad. mr lim didnt come, DR CHUA CAME! omg. HAHA. he damn LOL la, carissa they all say he boring like siao. HAHA. he cnt recognise me hehe! LOL. ok.. so hmm..... do angles... then recess. LOL.. changed, me, lyanne and deb went 2nd floor toilet, full, went up again. LOL. so went down and buy food with kns ppl except lyanne and deb who is busy doing work. LOL. ok this time, kena caught by teacher again -.- NOT ME. HAHA. is sheree, then charis hide behind the wall and eat, me and carissa, RUN upstairs. HAHA. LOL. but that lor mai kai wrapper also not ours! is just nice we standing there ma! wth la, nvm HAHA. so went up... geography, i eat half way, then mrs choe came! wa, scare me luh! faster hide my food underneath, then run to locker. zzz so fast come -.- LOL la... haven greet her, start scolding us alr. say our classrm very dirty.. BLAH BLAH. say she is no nonsense cher. ZZZ. lame ok. ya, then i was just scolding her, she ask me answer the question LOL. hehe, zzz. dont care la. then cnt see ma, so went to carissa's table. talk talk talk. hhahaah. is damn funny la, mrs choe keep, CLARISSA! stop talking! LYANNE, sit properly! HAHA. LOL! ok then eng! DAMN FUN LA. first time i m saying this. LOL. went to our poem grp, then discuss, omg damn funny la! i acting out all the animals la! HMPH! first is horse, charis jumping onto me. HAHAH. ok then, MERMAID. LOL SIA! ask me walk like a mermaid, HELLO! thats so, OBSCENE! laughed like mad la! omg. hahahah! then what, WATER SNAKE. LOL! ok then, EAGLE. LOL! all animals de! nvm haha we had fun, loads. HAHA. so we rehersed finish alr, we were like fooling ard la, charis and sheree were dancing, dont know what dance la! then the head turn at the same time. HAHAHA. then, carissa hold the broom stick, suddenly the whole handle stick into her shirt. OMG LAUGHED LIKE MAD LA! sheree laughed until no sound, then BOM on the floor, continue laughing. HAHAHA. damn funny la! then we pushed all the tables to the sides. make one circle, thn do stretching exercise? LOL. lame la, but nvm HAH cos is wasting TIME. LOL after that, thank ms sheena alr, everyone damn noisy, then she started scoding lo. LOL. then i look like retard la! cos i stood in the middle of nowhere when i m supposed to stand at my own seat. so omg la, i hide behind carissa. LOL. ya mr choy cameeee. slacking period, LOL. i changed place with puay hon, sat with sarah loke. OMG she damn funny la. LOL. sot sot de, laughed like siao also. then all we did were... designing our, cafe things... ya then chatted with carissa, sarah online. LOL! hahahha. then sarah was like, eh u(carissa) and okky like lovers sia. HAHAHAHA OMG i laughed like siao! then we were doodling la, then draw one big big eye, sarah was colouring it like retard. HAHAHA. then sheree looked liao, laughed like siao zha bor. LOL! hahahahha. then after that, went home with yutong. showing her some magic la, BUT I CNT DO LE!! omggg. is her ring got problem HAHA. nono. maybe cos her ring too small. LOL haha. ya, then took 99 with her, damn funny la, throwing hi chew to and fro. OMG la. then i use file to block her, she use book to block me. HAHA LOL. in the end, i need to alight alr ma, so i throw at her, then she ROLL to me! omg, then u know hi chews damn ex one la! so i picked up and alight! omg, ppl think i despo, want sweet until like that. LOL hahaha. ok reached home bathe eat. LOL. ok byebye! hahah today was GREAT. August 12, 2008 waaaa. i missed everything in the past suddenly mannnn.(its random i know. but i need to put it down, or i will end tonight with tears again.) i missed miss sam's nagging, i missed miss sam's drawing that made whole class laughed like crazy i missed the PILES of homework she gave us which stressed us up i missed the fun, shiok time with chinese cher i missed the 'kia su' 6d hmt ppl, who always asked for each other marks i missed chinese cher's voice, surprisingly i missed my mates, that followed me through 6 years i missed yueling, who made me laughed, fooled like crazy tgt. i missed the family, they just rockked. i missed the OSLP ppl, the 3 days seem so short, yet we had been so much. i missed the vball main 6. i missed celestine, though we will meet next year, when u are playing lib for cedar, the fun, crazy times we had been tgt, until now, i still feel that our 默契 that time was so so so gd, i really missed playing ball with you, not as opponent like next year, but being in the same team... it can never happen again i guess.. i missed his voice.. i missed.. i missed.. all these can only be memories, but i guess i could nvr get back the same feeling with them anymore, as time passes, we are just drifting, further and further.... half died now luh. LOL. not dead, just feel like sleeping zzz. ok but today was great la. chinese, everyone was like, damn nervous, cos china cher coming in, but in the end, is thursday class then got -.- LOL ok then talked abt COMPO. whooooo! thought i will gone case la! omg, i scared like some shit. so in the end:D:D:D:D i got top muhaha. hehe, 37 ok, but if i test on the same day as the others, maybe can get higher lo, cos the question very nice to write. zzz. ya, so top, thomas second:D 35. LOL. ok chapelllll. no chairs today. zzz! ok nvm, still not bad la. LOL. oh oh! today before school, me and carissa were damn high la, LOL. laughed like crazy la, she a bit sot sot de. LOL hahahahah. recess, do work, filing. eng was boring, i didnt do one essay, but she dont know. LOL. -.- stupid luh. so ya, go into groups, then, do poems, LOL. FPC SUCKS. LOL. chemistry. GIVE BACK TEST PAPER! WHOO. 24. but thomas 24 HALF. DOTS! ZZZ! nvm, is once in a life time i will get this high. LOL. ya then that stupid despo, I WANNA KILL HER LA. WTH... ZZZ! COS HIS GRP PRESENT LA, THEN SHE TURN ARD THEN SAYS, GOOD LUCK! THEN TURN TO ME, I JUST NICE LOOKED AT HER, THEN SHE GIVE ME THAT .... SMILE! SHE DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS HAPPENING BETWEEN US LA, ZZZ EXTRADED! ZZZZZZZZZZZ. ok enough, i see alr also buay song. zzz physics, boring again. ZZZ ya thn, groupings again. i gro with thomas. LOL. with thean yian and meipeng! :D this grp is the best so far la. LOL ok enough of sch la, training! yong guang CAME :D:D:D:D ok nvm... haha. so underhand thing..... spike...... rain! then went up for pt. LOL. wa, damn pain la, but nvm i can stand it. still ok. LOL. but running part.. uh.... can die. LOL. ahha ok after trng, went opp with yt, hm, jer, heidi! LOL. bbt then went home. LOL on the way, me and yutong talking abt kill marry and blah again HAHA okok. i end here. BYEBYE. August 11, 2008 sian... ok.. watched olympics. ronald susilo damn lousy la. LOL :P hahah. the malaysia guy keep hitting that place then he not alert like that. ZZZ lost to malaysia. LOL. tao li also lost. hahah. damn nice. haha then online... play gamesss. ya.. talk to yt, LOL. ok la, i next time then post the pics lurh. yutong says i cant online for so long. ZZZ LOL haha. i off to watch olympics liao.haha. August 10, 2008 cheeky. :D wayneeee :D zzzz. SIAN la.. my msg only 707 nia what.... not like 1000 right. ZZZ. hmph. swam just now, first time swim until so shiok. 10 frog, 14min. lol.... felt so relax la... zzz. went ahma hse eat. then go home. zzz. please lo, ur com, u dont know where is the microsoft word, wth can.. how stupid can u get. -.- is just a few words, then ask me type for u then send email -.- zzz! think i what, ur secretary(wdv) is it. i not that free la. wtf. zzzzzzzzzzz. somemore is i mac, dont know how to use, buy for what?! siao. ZZZ. sux la. actually today ok wan lo. zzz. then bill come, mom nag. wthhhhhh. how can i study with so much distractionsssss... maybe posting some pics ltr, but i cant bloody find them. got some prob -.- i really dont know what to do la, sometimes, when i think that the feelings had disappeared, it comes back, i need to make a decision. but i really dont know which of my decisions is correct, i am confused. really, someone... please help me... * i post more pics tmr la, sleep. zzz. 11.02 alr. sian......... zzzzzzz! woke up at 930am. these few days wake up damn early. then yutong called me. damn 准 just woke up, haven eat breakfast then call alr. LOL. ya... ltr got open cup, cant bloody go!!!!!!! hmph. that stupid swimming lesson! sian la! everytime also like that one. zzzzzz. :( August 9, 2008 hello! :D hahah. happy birthaday singapore-.- HAHA. today was damn sian la, do hw at ard 10am. do do do. then online. play games. aha ltr then continue with my work. LOL. zzzz! nth to post abt liao. byebye. if you knew. August 8, 2008 today was super super sian. go bishan do lame things. left hse at 7am. took same train as yufan. but didnt see yt. LOL. soooooo. ya, bro lead me and yf to bishan stadium, reached there, damn little ppl nia. so stood there like retard man... finally sarah msged me! :D went meet her, then lyanne. finally can go in and sit liaooo. so ya, sit... camwhored. yutong finally came. sat with her a while. then went up take sweet. :D wah, i go up only, charis said, I WANT TAKE PICTURE WITH ADELINE. HEHEHE. :D popular. hahah! ok then take pic liao, go down find yt again, ahhaha. ya, after that, got motivaters. -.- dont know what shit motivaters are they. say the cheer to motivate us to SLEEP instead of high-ing. lol. went to the canal there, connect thingy. ya, hot like shit. then walk here walk there! in the end, still go back to the same spot. ZZZ! oh and timothy tan is damn cute la. swing the sg flag at okky and shawn. HAHA. damn funny. ya, so after slacking.......... needa connect. HOLD HANDS ALR. wa, kns! u know who stand beside me?! kns la. ok nvm forget forget it. ZZZ. then carissa was like, OKKY TOK! come stand beside her la! LOL. ZZZZZZZ. ya, dont know stand there for what shit, a while, went back. take attendance, dismissed. LOL. took mrt with yutong. hahah. got one security. and 2 black guysssss. SUPER BLACK OK. omg. i bet they confirm cnt be seen at night la! LOL. hahahahah! yea.. reached home, eat then do work. I FINISHED MY 习字！heheh. cool right :D haha. ok byebye! :D i quite happy now though. haha. just feel that the feeling is getting deeper!:D:D:D:D August 7, 2008 hmm. today.. was sian. LOL. dont know la, like everyday also sian LOL. morning, felt damn irritated, cos reached sch just nice. zzzzzzzzzz. first period, chinese. left like one bloody period only. zzz. then, got one tea programme for hmt peeps. 5.50 dollars. interested come find me register. -.- LOL. teach u how to make tea all that. LOL. ok then maths. super boring... -.- i playing dolphin all the way la. LOL. sian nah, recess. went down buy food. bought up for some classmates. then... physics. test got back alr, expected to be this kind of marks. passed by 1 mark -.- haven signed yet... zzz. sian la, i just dont have the interst in physics man. if is bio and chem still can. physics, sucha boring subject la. LOL. go through paper... thn bio. this time round, quite fun leh, every thursday. mr chan very fun. LOL. talked abt genetic thingys. then the widows peak:D whole class of girls only me and max got! :D:D:D and mr chan says it is a rare genetic thing. LOL. ya. quite fun lo. better than physics la. even better than geog. LOL. geog. gave back test paper also. 18.5/25. NOT BAD ALR. LOL. highest thomas yip that freak. 24 -.- zzz ok.... ya, damn boring la, did the brochure thing with okky's grp. ya, then.... ls. ZZZ. ms tai come in only then buay song. ZZZ. the mrs choe big mouth la! complain to ms tai says we game during curriculum (wdv) hours. ZZZ then come in only, statred scolding. but who cares, i behind, she cant see meeee. LOL. said a lot of things la, gaming in class, eating in class, locker's time, attire, ZZZ. then after that, she asked those whose computers got games downloaded inside to go out see her. in the end, like half of the class went out. HAHA. LOL. kena scolded outside lo. then, made fun of vanessa sim. HAHA. she damn freaky flirt la. DISGUSTING. -.- copy her every action. laughed like maddd. cheryl also another one. see alr also want to vomit. -.- after school went meet yutong and huimin. went home after that. saw yufan at bus stop, so went home tgt. on bus 196, got one bunch of idiot malay guys spraying deo. wth ok. damn hell smelly la. then they damn kp la. ccb. act nia, in the end also kena scolded by one ah lian in front. damn scary lo. she keep scolding, CB, knn. and blah blah. hehe, dont dare look at her, ltr come scold me. LOL. ya, homeeeeee. saw elder bro at cck, so went home tgt. reached home bathed, do hw, eat a little then online. ya thats all byebye. i just simply love you. August 6, 2008 HELLO. ahahs, ok.. today was QUITE ok. thought i will be bored to death today, but still ok. morning, saw A DEAD BIRD. not exactly one. but is like... skeleton, with feathers surrounding it. LOL! ok.. reach sch at ard 7. ya....PE first period. ZZZ tennis again. ok, this time, cos dont know who is our group's captain mr lee chose me. :P haha. ok play play play. is actually me and shawn low playing nia. cos the others dont want play. LOL. yea.. so is quite ok la. maths olympiad. hehe. not bad la, only that the doors went kee siao, cos all suddenly open, then can see what the other class doing. LOL.... recess..... went down buy food, then...come up. ms ng suddenly walked past our classrm, then thought she went off alr ma, then who knows she suddenly come back! then me and sheree eating, then she says, AH AH! eat in class ah! ltr i tell ms tai ah! u want?! dont want go down canteen eat, now! then me and sheree, ran out. then stroll to the canteen, walked while eating. LOL. then she frm behind, AH! still eat! then we chiong to the central staircase, eat finish, then go back. LOL. geog was boring ok.... SUPER. ZZZZZZZZ. eng also. DOTS, ms sheena realised me and carissa chatting. ZZZ but nvm, she sure knows that her lessons are simply too boring. LOL. mr choy! LOL. the most shiok period today, HE DIDNT TEACH. is like reg 1 to 21, go out and tell him abt our product and stuff lo.. then, like one to one ma, so the rest, just draw... ya, then i finished drawing alr, is like free period. LOL. msn. play games. MSN, is like 10 peeps online ok... plus the boys at least got 15 la. then, ya, play dolphin game! omg. ahahahha. deborah is damn PRO. she boing until MARS, OVER THE MOON AND STARS. then go mars! cnt come down, cos is like no gravity there. HAHA. damn funnny la. LOL ok find yutong, eat the training. training was ok... thai coach, luck, and one girl came. mostly physicals... ya. then spiking. thats all. ok but is quite fun, cos... wh never train. LOL! hahha. went home.... ya... wanna do some hw then sleep alr la, byeeeeeeee. i m just so confused to decide. u must understand, its hard for me... August 5, 2008 hello. ok i m quite today la, seriously. not in gd mood la. ok this morning......... not bad... ya.. reach school find classmates, then find yutong...... assembly. last min- studying all the way. yea.. chinese test.. quite ok la.... just that some of the answers i not very very sure... yep.. then, chapel. ok.. those got 250 and above for psle are able to get the OSP scholarship la, then that time my mom got tell me i can get ma, so i thought i can, then, i rush there, check la, then, they say my name not inside. wth.. ok, when they announce, they say 250 and above, plus MATHS AND SCI MUST A* wth ok.... i damn freaking pissed off. seriously. i work hard for psle, come here for volleyball, and when i realise i could get the scholarship, i m damn happy, now u tell me i dont have. AHHH. nvm, jut feel damn shit the whole day. recess. eng.. didnt do eng hw, but nvm... yea, eng was ok today, talk to joshia, ms sheena keep looking at me -.- chemistry, MS LIANG EXPLODED. LOL! cos there were 12 failures in the class for chem test. LOL and the HIGHEST IS ONLY 24.5!! omg la! CANNOT BE. DOTS. maybe mark differently. LOL. nvm.. so.. did some worksheet, then, called reg 30.. then i damn happy ok, thought wouldnt kena me alr, then suddenly she says, 31 answer this. -.- SIAN DIAO. i was just finished laughing at sarah lo. zzzzzzzzzzz. physics. DAMN SLEEPY. wanted to on my com, go msn and play. then suddenly, i cnt on! i freak out totally man. i thought both my batt spoil, then how i use! lol. so ask joshia help me see if i overcharged it or what, then he says inside dont have batt. left. so lend me his charger and i went charge. zzz. so like that, 3/4 of period byebye liao, then, counted out reaction. damn fun actually. carissa they all keep saying i SLOW. HMPH. but.. i admit la, but a bit only ok. maths.... ms ng came. ya. do worksheet again lo. OH OH! and we were playing with lyanne's colouring. IT IS RED. hehhe. so is like i dripped on my wrist there, then like i commit suicide like that LOL. ya... after that, our grp to arrange tables for tmr's olympiad lesson. zzzz. but me and carissa zao go eat the chinese compo test. ok la....... but i scared my compo gone case only lo. zzz. went meet huimin after that. she playing ball with kim and jing jie. so sit there and see. after that went home. huimin is super funny, cos saw joanna ong, then she run! HAHAH. omg. damn funny, then we cross a traffic we created ourselves sia. haha. her reaction damn damn funny la. LOL. ok... then reached cck, me and her suaku, go take the samples of the yogurt thingy, eat. hahah. damn freaky nice. wanted to go back take again. HEHE. ok.. reached home....... bathe, eat. do work. i cant SLACK anymore. or i will seriously DIE. maybe i will just try my best, but i still must work hard uh.. ms liang's(mrs tan's) words somehow woke me up, i hope is not too late.. i just want to do well in my studies, i want to be like last time, doing work day and night, focused no matter what, i missed ms sam's HOMEWORK... i dont care what is your psle score, when u come this class, everyone is the same. we start together, strive together and work hard together... this is so so so right. our class is too compleasant.(wdv) August 4, 2008 yoooo... ok. back frm yutong's hse.... released early today.. but supposed to released at 1045, in the end, that bloody ms tai released at 1115 like that. nono, not released, is i run out. zzz. felicia lo... ganchiong. in the end didnt eat the cake. LOL. nvm la hahas. ok... actually wanted to go vivo la. then.... rain... so didnt go. went sumo eat, then fel's hse instead. ok, it is crazy la. laughed like mad. really. so long nvr laugh like this le. yep. but LOL sia. ok... super bored at felicia's hse. nth to do. no hw, NOTHING. zzz LOL. after a while, went yutong's hse. yea... ok.. is quite zzz on the way there. nah.. nvm... then reach there... play with dog.... then.. ya, i finished looking at yutong's pics. hahaha. while i looking, they doing heymaths. hehehe. so like... ard..730, we left. took mrt home. reached home at 8! fast not?! LOL. hahas. confirm 100percent faster than huimin ok... LOL. ok.. nth much at home la, go bathe, ya.. sleepy... studying for tmr's test.. yea... thats all. i really hate the feeling of being tied up.. i m not a 3 years old kid anymore. i have grown up like a bit.. at least, let me have some fresh air. i cant possibly stuck in this cage forever. i m tired. i m even tired to say anything. just, let me go... August 3, 2008 feeling much better today luh. LOL. hmm.. 想通了 haha i have decided not to care much anymore. since i m not the captain, why shld i care? last time, i was just 多此一举 now dont care le la. they dont want shout thn dont, i dont careeeee. LOL. anw, going fix/buy another specs ltr. currnt specs broke. LOL. is accident lo, cos thomas and lungs they all keep using the balls to throw at my head during the founder's day rehersal, thn throw until my specs 歪歪. LOL. then, wanted to make it back, then suddenly the thing drop out. HEH. thomas dasmn shit la! walao, thought he very guai wan. then keep using the balls to throw at me! wth! ji dan wan loooo. is i nvr use the ball and whack him nia. or he die. keep ordering lungs to throw at. HMPH. now gd la, break alr, LOL but just came back frm swimming and repairing the specs.... wanted to go and watch yg open cup.. but then leh... mum dont allow. cos needa go ahma hse eat. zzz. yutong ahhhh. realx luhhhh. sure got another chance de:D we all take turns to get sad. hahah:D bye peeps August 2, 2008 this blog is somehow dead zzz sian........ i dont know what to say... hmm.. er... only know ytd's performance was great. drama and dance rockkssss. venessa was GREAT. harris too. i liked the part when he said, excuse me, excuse me, excuuuuuussssse meeee. damn cool, and the 3 girls, when they said, i just hate the IDEA of BOYS coming to FAIRFIELD and can you please stand further away? LOL cool like hell. overall just UBER GREAT. LOL. past few days didnt blogged. rehersal, rehersal and rehersal, in the end, just go up and threw balls. dots. ya.. and got one day limsc was damn crappy. talked for the sake of talking sia. LOL. ya i think thats all for past few days..... school was boring as usual.. dont have the mood to study. every lesson seems to bore me. exp science when is not lab work. geog, physics, maths(surprisingly), chem, english.. yea.. all except for chinese. zzz... but i will try to work hard for end of year... still needa get the scholarship. hais... ok lets talk abt todayyyy... overslept. cos ytd slept at.. 1215am if i m not wrong. this morning, 7am then wake up. freak out totally. cos supposed to wake up 1 hr earlier, thn chiong to bathe, pack bag, eat breakfast and ran off to wait for bus. reached school at, 8 plus, saw jian ping, she also overslept. ya... lucky they haven set court yet, so helped to set outdoor court, then warmed up. 3 rounds of jogging and... 12 rounds of chionging for the long distance? i think so...thn........ spiking... LOL. all dont know how to do, so anyhow. LOL. b girls went up to clear chairs, while c girls keep the outdoor poles. went up, helped to clear the chairs thn, set up. train. do the underhand thing and touched cone thing again. zzz tiredddd. thn, yao hui trained me, alex, jian ping and carina setting. zzzzzz. 50 times of setting, touching the aircon wall there. my max is 20 -.- thn yao hui reduced to 30 for me, but still cnt. i tried my very very best alr... hais. thn went court to train. tired like gay. yao hui ok, YAO HUI known for that monster setter. LOL. after that, let us go drink water. wtf ok, i sit down for like 1 min only, thn wh looked at me, 好了没有?! wtf? ok nvm. stand up lo. go play match. at the back jie qiu. kena 'tau pok'ed by jia le and jia hui lots of time. dots. bloody piss off while playing ok. they dont know how to open their mouths one leh. the freaking golden mouth. then, after 1 match, we gathered, play again. ya.. play for like 3matches? i dont know la, they just dont know how to shout let or what. i 后排 wan u expect me to fly to in front and jie that ball meh?! argh. nvm... so jermaine finally cant take it anymore, cos she played setter. and jia le and jia hui zhong. so last match, she dont know say what, then she says, dont play thn dont play la! thn go flip score. LOL. so jianping came and set our side. after that match, we gather. wh says. now the prob is, we dont have a setter. jianping is b girls setter. then jia le says, jing hui sick, thn he says, but she got set until so gd not? we today dont have setter, thats why jermaine play setter. ZZZ. nvm i will 忍 bias like hell. i only missed ONE ball only. then scold me! jia le jia hui missed like some what, just say them nia! thn how they improve! wtf. and, i kena tortured by yao hui, then u says jing hui will likely be the setter, then what for gives me false hope that i may become a setter? since u think that jing hui is the best in ur eyes, thn just focus and train me jie qiu la. alex also like that, u trained cassandra and jocelyn spiking instead of alex. this is what? joke of the day ah. maybe u are trying out, i dont know, but aiya. is just damn unfair to those dsa one ok. i dont know la. aiya. today's trng SUX. felicia is right, no matter how gd ur attendance is, u will nvr be 100% in main 6. i just feel a sudden of giving up. i thought after recovering frm the last time, i will nvr say i m going to give up again. but i m wrong. i just cant take it anymore. i m tired. on the way home, felicia and huimin somehow councilled me. talked to me, and cheer me up. they are right, i shouldnt think too much, it makes me headache. frm now, i will just play well for my own place(if i get 1), seriously, if u all dont want to open ur mouths and shout with us, the forget it, what for shout when theres only 2 to 3 of us shouting in a team? forget it, i dont give a damn. u dont know how it feels when u are given a false hope. u just dont understand. it feels terribly bad. the feeling of breaking down. is just fated..
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay