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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
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Adeline!, 12021995I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard
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August 2, 2008
this blog is somehow dead zzz sian........ i dont know what to say... hmm.. er... only know ytd's performance was great. drama and dance rockkssss. venessa was GREAT. harris too. i liked the part when he said, excuse me, excuse me, excuuuuuussssse meeee. damn cool, and the 3 girls, when they said, i just hate the IDEA of BOYS coming to FAIRFIELD and can you please stand further away? LOL cool like hell. overall just UBER GREAT. LOL. past few days didnt blogged. rehersal, rehersal and rehersal, in the end, just go up and threw balls. dots. ya.. and got one day limsc was damn crappy. talked for the sake of talking sia. LOL. ya i think thats all for past few days..... school was boring as usual.. dont have the mood to study. every lesson seems to bore me. exp science when is not lab work. geog, physics, maths(surprisingly), chem, english.. yea.. all except for chinese. zzz... but i will try to work hard for end of year... still needa get the scholarship. hais... ok lets talk abt todayyyy... overslept. cos ytd slept at.. 1215am if i m not wrong. this morning, 7am then wake up. freak out totally. cos supposed to wake up 1 hr earlier, thn chiong to bathe, pack bag, eat breakfast and ran off to wait for bus. reached school at, 8 plus, saw jian ping, she also overslept. ya... lucky they haven set court yet, so helped to set outdoor court, then warmed up. 3 rounds of jogging and... 12 rounds of chionging for the long distance? i think so...thn........ spiking... LOL. all dont know how to do, so anyhow. LOL. b girls went up to clear chairs, while c girls keep the outdoor poles. went up, helped to clear the chairs thn, set up. train. do the underhand thing and touched cone thing again. zzz tiredddd. thn, yao hui trained me, alex, jian ping and carina setting. zzzzzz. 50 times of setting, touching the aircon wall there. my max is 20 -.- thn yao hui reduced to 30 for me, but still cnt. i tried my very very best alr... hais. thn went court to train. tired like gay. yao hui ok, YAO HUI known for that monster setter. LOL. after that, let us go drink water. wtf ok, i sit down for like 1 min only, thn wh looked at me, 好了没有?! wtf? ok nvm. stand up lo. go play match. at the back jie qiu. kena 'tau pok'ed by jia le and jia hui lots of time. dots. bloody piss off while playing ok. they dont know how to open their mouths one leh. the freaking golden mouth. then, after 1 match, we gathered, play again. ya.. play for like 3matches? i dont know la, they just dont know how to shout let or what. i 后排 wan u expect me to fly to in front and jie that ball meh?! argh. nvm... so jermaine finally cant take it anymore, cos she played setter. and jia le and jia hui zhong. so last match, she dont know say what, then she says, dont play thn dont play la! thn go flip score. LOL. so jianping came and set our side. after that match, we gather. wh says. now the prob is, we dont have a setter. jianping is b girls setter. then jia le says, jing hui sick, thn he says, but she got set until so gd not? we today dont have setter, thats why jermaine play setter. ZZZ. nvm i will 忍 bias like hell. i only missed ONE ball only. then scold me! jia le jia hui missed like some what, just say them nia! thn how they improve! wtf. and, i kena tortured by yao hui, then u says jing hui will likely be the setter, then what for gives me false hope that i may become a setter? since u think that jing hui is the best in ur eyes, thn just focus and train me jie qiu la. alex also like that, u trained cassandra and jocelyn spiking instead of alex. this is what? joke of the day ah. maybe u are trying out, i dont know, but aiya. is just damn unfair to those dsa one ok. i dont know la. aiya. today's trng SUX. felicia is right, no matter how gd ur attendance is, u will nvr be 100% in main 6. i just feel a sudden of giving up. i thought after recovering frm the last time, i will nvr say i m going to give up again. but i m wrong. i just cant take it anymore. i m tired. on the way home, felicia and huimin somehow councilled me. talked to me, and cheer me up. they are right, i shouldnt think too much, it makes me headache. frm now, i will just play well for my own place(if i get 1), seriously, if u all dont want to open ur mouths and shout with us, the forget it, what for shout when theres only 2 to 3 of us shouting in a team? forget it, i dont give a damn. u dont know how it feels when u are given a false hope. u just dont understand. it feels terribly bad. the feeling of breaking down. is just fated.. |
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