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Adeline!, 12021995I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard
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November 30, 2008
happy 370th post! LOL. ya CHAMPS!:D:D:D okay continue tmr. off to sleep-.- LOL November 29, 2008
yoyo. short post, and i am off to sleep! I AM HAPPY TODAY. HEHE. LOL we won. anderson. YAY! LOL. tmr's finals with shuqun. JIAYOU CGIRLS OKAY! must ping for the last match! and the most impt one!!! JIAYOU! FAIRFIELD ACE, ACE, ACE! November 28, 2008
yo. what did i do today? okay erm.. morning went trng? LOL. ya... waited for mom DAMN LONG-.- went to buy breakfast for me, then 820 then came back, by the time, i alr sitting at the bus stop-.- then when she brought my keys and breakfast down, the bus went alr-.- so i took to cck, wahlaoooo. like going late alr lah-.- but i reached earlier than simin and yingmin!!! supposed to met them, but i thought they will be earlier than me. LOL in the end later. :O sorry. trng was okay? yg was like shouting at me purposely. acting fierce? LOL then went home straight with simin. cos tired? this morning dont even feel like getting up okay. is like. ahh. another day with balls. zzz. went clementi. saw some fight going on. lols... then mrt ppl came. ya, took to yew tee. wah... the stupid cocked up bus take freaking long-.- ZZZ morning also like that. afternoon also-.- then reached home... bathed. watch the video, then. went for swimming. swimming was fine? ya. swam 10 backstrokes, 2 pyjamas, 2 frogs, thats all.... ya. last lessoooon. YESSS. reached home, bathed, ate dinner. tmr got match with anderson. jiayou cgirls. November 27, 2008
today was okay after match. went habourfront and eat sushi with cassandra, simin and jocelyn. then slacked like mad. LOL. went the.... the.... dont know where, open air there, go fan gun-.- LOL. release stress? LOL. then went home. ya. reached home quite late. tired like dog-.- ate dinner, and watched tv. tmr trng 9 to 12. bye. November 26, 2008
hello. today sucks. i hate today. except the fact is third month! but trng has alr made my mood dullllllll. :((((( enough. after t.r.n.g, i went to eat mr prata? that simin introduced. haha. singapore tour guide. POTENTIAL. nice:) hahaha. anw, yea.. talk... then went home. home sweet home. first time i find that home is so nice. LOL. went to bathe straight. then wash jersey, then nth. okay onlined.. yea. until nowww. wanted to get some sleep. but i cant. LOL. ummmm. okay, lets see, cgirls jiayou, really hope i wont make STUPID mistakes like i did today/ every match we had been through, really hope we will win tmr's match. jiayou cgirls. we can do it(: sort of excited now? LOL. i know is kind of unusal. but aiya nvm. my schedule- tmr, match. fri, training, swimming, sat, semi. sunday, finals, swimming. thats why, i want to get fat, also difficult. LOL. okay thats all. bye. i am so going to pray for tmr's match. bye. HAPPY THIRD MONTH!(((((((: November 25, 2008
today was TIRING. -.- LOL. match against hongkah. played like total SHIT today-.- ZZZ. ZZZ. first set wasnt THAT bad. second set was atrocious. lols. sorry that i played horribly today. sorry. and coach wants us to train tmr. ahhhh. our only rest day is gone. just. gone. first match was 12-25, second match was 18-25. omg when i recall how i played. i seriously want to kill myself-.- OMG like SHIT. damn freaking hell argh. :(((((((((((((((((( tmr trng 9 to 12. jiayou cgirls. allllll the wayyyyy!:D bye. time to sleep. oh ya! and tmr is our thrid month. yet theres trng-.- oh well. thats volleyballers' life... i made my mistakes, got nowhere to run, but life goes on, as i am fading away. i am sick of this life, i just want to scream, HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME? November 24, 2008
yoyo. today was tiring. i shant say it is a bad day... is a good day! :) lol. anw. had match against bukit panjang. first match was 15, second match was 22 :O it was close. yea. we won btw, and really really need to thank alex for that:) her service aced alot. whooo. and omg-.- i think i must run faster omg-.- i cant believe i ran damn slowly. lols..... AHHHH. LOL. nvm then went ikea ate with simin! LOL. HAHA. so LOL. i didnt know they sell food there. damn cool. lols. hmm. then took 197 to jurong east-.- freaking hell lot of people-.- ZZZ AND THAT ZZZ BALL BAG. it nearly drove me crazy.lols. seriously man. everyone is pushing it-.- then mrt omg-.- worse. wah freak it man. freak it. so pissed off. and i cant run with that. and a crumpler. lols. finally reached home-.- brothers at home. omg-.- dont know how to open door for me-.- nvm. then saw glenn using my tablet to play!!! OMG. worst. i am so going to change the password soon. -.- my tablet's disc holder alr... sot? if he going to game here. OMG-.- if lag. i am so going to kill him-.- lols. sian. tmr got match again. jiayou cgirls! :) hohoho. so sian. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. nth looo. byebye. November 23, 2008
 hoho. me and jermaine. LOL that day, i brought a lot of purples:D i realised i am the shortest. nice. i like the pictures a lot. hahah :) :) November 22, 2008
yoyo. today DAMN BORING-.- oh first, woke up at 10. then went to meet kirsten to give her back the comics, i borrowed last year, psle. LOL. HAHA 1 year alr. yea... so... okay.. she returned my books too. LOL. OMG MAN. i chua tio. cos inside got 1 paper, one cartoon there is.. one guy? CUTE bangla? THICK LIPS. AHA. exactly the description me and grace made:D HAHA. so i laughing like mad. LOLS.. after that nth much alr lah. stay at home slack. slacked the whole day. zzz. whoops and i screwed yufan's blog. sorry. lols. ahhhhhhhh. tmr got match. vs st hildas. hope we win uh? and... i think MAYBE gwendolyn is there? ahha not sure. lols. watching tv now. so bo liao. i viewing everone's friendster and commenting. alamak. no life-.- lol. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. what should i do now? ytd suddenly cry. i know crazy. i also dont know why. lols. just suddenly the eyes very watery. lol.. 1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someone's eyes when you are telling them how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?: Looking into someones eyes when they are telling me how they feel 2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? for some reasons 3. You are on a flight from honolulu to chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. you have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call?: parents 4. You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?: yea... closest friends? and him lo. haha. spend every second with them. cherish lo. yea. of cos afraid! who not scared of dying and leaving your loved ones? 5. You can have one of the following two things- Love or Trust. Which do you choose? Why?: trust. if dont have trust, you dont need to love. 6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?: save the dog la! LOL. fired, still can get other jobs, if dont save the dog, there will be one less dog on earth! 7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her? Why or Why not?: huh. lols. i wont be unfaithful lah please. lols. haha. dont know how to answer 8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you do/say?: HAHA. then i will laugh. imagine grace confesses to me. HAHAH. i will laugh!:D 9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or why not?: i dont know who. i think no one. lols. 10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? haha no i guess. i am too. stupid, sucky, idiotic, retarded. 11. Does love = sex? HAHA NO. LOL. grace i love you:D= grace i want to sex with you?!!! HAHAH LOL!!! 12. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? some time ago.. few weeks? 13. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a friend, you love them or that you do not love them back?: i do not love them back. 14. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose? studies.. him:)... volleyball. biggest part of my life. 15. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who were they to you?: grace is it? HAHA. LOL. she is MY hello kitty:D HAHA 16. Imagine- it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?: hohoho. yufan:D 17. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or why not?: HAHA. i dont think so. cos i dont even know how to. i will call grace to do so. cos she is learning it:D 18. You are holding onto your grandmother's hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your reason for making the decision?: ... not sure... maybe the newborn baby... haha. ask me why personally:D i dont wish to say out. 19. Are you old fashioned?: yesh i think 20. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?: i am nice to ppl!!! seahs are nice ppl!! and dont expect anything in return! 21. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?: True love with a guarantee of a broken heart. at least you got the experience? and loved before like what grace said:D 22. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?: i would want to sacrifice my image to make my friends happy if i could, i will be happy if they are:D November 21, 2008
yo. trng was tiring. for me. running here and there. made my lungs feel like coming out. heart seems to be beating faster to get out of my fucking body. lols. okay. fan gun. my back got one swollen thingy. not sure whats that. but simin also got. and is damn pain. lols. lunch break, ate wanton mee and drank coke. nice. went back sch. play a while, rest. start trng again. this time round, trng damn shit. zzz. quite slack. but aiya, running again. zzz. after trng, went to take 198 with simin. she alighted, after she alighted, i dont know where am i suppose to alight. LOL. seriously. i nearly missed the busstop. but i am smart. LOL. wanted to jaywalk. but-.- freaking hell lot of cars. like never endng you know. zzz. then ah. i went to take overhead bridge, kinda dumb, cos i stood there for like 5min, then went to take overhead bridge. LOL. yea. literally crawled up the stairs-.- ya took mrt back. reached home. sian dont want post alr. very sian HELLO ADELINE I'M OVERJOYEDDDDDDDD! SHHHHHH, MY IDENTITY IS A SECRET. BUT I LOVE YOU!(: November 20, 2008
hello. i am too bored, so blog. feel like sleeping alr. seriously-.- blah blah oh today was fun. erm... played with quest. won... almost all of us off form. i off like OMG-.- LOL... then after that, went plaza sing!:D eat some kind of.. BIG BIG hamburger. super big. ultra big! then..... go walk walk. bought the pencil case!:D:D SO NICE. ahahha thanks simin hoho. hehe. then watch the chiwawa movie. HAHA LOL. thennnn. we walk ard a while, went home. me and jocelyn stood frm douby. (wdv) to yew tee. omg-.- is 45 mins. stood, i nearly fell aslp. hahaha. then... went home. wanted to meet grace. but ah.. sorry. :X 630 then reach yew tee. i 7 need to reach house leh. LOL. yea sorry! another day okay!:D ah psle. dlss p6 sucks man-.- LOL. 274? highest? gawd.... lol.... but is quite expected, cos me and grace bet alr. HAHA. :P LOL. okay erm. oh ya. dlss is damn ugly now. i am so glad i graduated. the door colour is what?!!! pangsai green as described by grace. HAHA. LOL. seriously, speechless. if yellow, STILL OKAY LO! green! OMG-.- everyday only know how to paint green. dont know the paint expired alr not-.- HAAH I LAUGHING LIKE CRAP NOW. LOL. seahs are great ppl okay! NOT LIKE LOKE! only got what NEVER DIE SPIRIT. HAHAHAHAHA. make me laugh. LOL HAHAH. simin and siewjun is damn hell funny. cannot stand it. HAHAHA LOL!!! now i know why simin gets along with seahs. cos... we are lame. LOL. HAHAHAH. ok. i guess i posting pics ltr or tmr. very tired... November 19, 2008
today was fun.:D won pierce. 25-3, 25-6 i think? LOL. hahaha then went vivo with simin and rest, but in the end, left me, simin, jocelyn and cassandra. LOL. hahaha. ate subway and went walk walk. toysrus:D:D:D SO FUN. ahaha omg simin made me laughed until i want to die. LOL. so funny. LOL. erm......... tmr vs queenstown. i ABIT scared leh. LOL. nvm nvm. post pics ltr:D HAHA LOL. hoho. i so excited for tmr. LOLS.... hello! okay match ltr on... meeting simin first. haha. jiayou c girls. :D o.o i think is raining now? LOL. sian... glenn going chalet today. 3 days gone. wow. i will be totally alone until at night. lols... sorry if i still not in the mood. i still cant forget what had happened, the pain i suffered. give me more time. i promised i will be back. being alone, is the worst thing, i know. cos i am experiencing it. cheer up you girl:) 17 nov. i rmb this day, the day when my heart broke, the day 3 kns went for camp, the day grace came back frm camp and is tired, the day tim tan left, the day yutong left for thailand, the day when no one is with me, and the day, when my heart hurts so badly. November 18, 2008
Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them? LOL. who i held hands with? maybe? What's the wallpaper to your cellphone? crumpler thingy. When did you first get Myspace? Dont have one. What kind of cellphone do you have? sony ericsson Are you drifting away from any friend? dont know? i hope not? What are you listening to? untitled by simple plan Which one of your cousins is closest in age?omg i dont know. i dont even know how many cousins i have What are you doing tonight? sleep. or cry. Do you miss anyone? Yes. Does the last person who put their arm around you mean anything to you? Yes Are you wearing socks? Nope Do you have anything in your pockets right now? Nope. Whos your last text from? yufan:D Are you comfortable with answering personal questions? depends. Do you believe that exes can really ever be "just friends"? depends i guess... Would you ever donate blood? erm... no? only take the blood go check some stuff LOL Ever kissed someone who smokes? NO-.- Someone on your mind right now? yupp. grace just asked me to think of 5 ppl. LOL haha Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? i think not? LOL Who was the last person to sit on your bed? myself. Where were you at 2:02 this morning? Sleeping -.- Did you go to sleep last night smiling? no. i cry to sleep Anyone told you a secret this week? i think no? LOL maybe yes... When was the last time you bought something? bought lunch? ytd bought some shit ice cream. LOL Do you play an instrument? no-.- In the next 4 months,what are you looking forward to most? 26th march 2009! 7th monthh Does a kiss make you feel better when you're angry? LOL-.- What is the color of the thing you are sitting on right now? black Was this New Year's enjoyable? LOL. boring. Name something that made you smile today? something... someone is grace. something is friendster. Are you high? no-.- Where do you think your best friend is right now? REVISING HER FIRST AIDS HAHAHAHA Are you listening to music right now? yes. Who else is in the room with you? i not in the room. Do you wish you were somewhere else? yea sometimes. What do the majority of people in your life call you? adeline Is something bothering you right now? dont know Have you ever walked on the beach at night? nope.... i walk with you! grace! HAHA What are you going to do tomorrow? match. Who did you last say I love you to? dont know. forgot. LOL. suppose... Do you have trust issues? OMG yes. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? think so Do you have a best friend to lean on? yea... What was the first thing you thought this morning? read storybook Who is the last person that commented/messaged you on myspace? i dont have one What did you do today? online. :O Where were you last night? at home If your parents didn't like the person you were dating, would you lose them? ? i dont know. What was the last drink you had? water. Look at your recent calls;who was your last call from? yufan Will this weekend be a good one? dont know? hope so?  security post @ dlss! LOL rainy day while waiting for grace to comee. alone after training, when no one bothers abt me. oh this guy is freaky, he smiled to himself the whole time. LOL zhen yi:D grace!  de la salle is loved:D my crumpler:)still dont feel very good. dont know why. sth is missing. oh well... carissa msged me this morning, i was like damn happy. cos i got a lot to tell her... but too bad, she is in camp.. hais... talking to simin now. LOL she just went off. yea. nvm. so boring... ... ... dont feel like talking to anyone. hmm... timothy tan has went australia for a day alr. ahhh... everyone is leaving. so sad. tmr got match.. actually i dont feel like seeing anyone though. just want to stay at home. bleah. so sian. why why why. i dont understand. i really dont. what makes you think that i did that? i got nth to say... seriously.. trust, is a simple word, yet is so damn hard to trust someone. or make someone to trust you. now tell me, what must i do, so that you trust me? i feel so lonely now. ytd was shit, only simin was there, carissa was in camp, cant contact her and i dont blame her, yutong was in thai, at that moment, i realise i was all alone, i scrolled down the contacts in my handphone, none of them give me a sense of security, the only person i can talk to is simin, but i was just so pissed off after sth happened, ignoring the calls, today was better. but not as good as ordinary days. my heart is aching like mad. thinking abt what had happened, just make me feel like jumping off the building. now, i am all alone again. memories just keep flushing back to my mind now. why cant we be like before? why must so many ppl come between us? why?! i dont want mention any names here, but is just so unfair. she may be your only friend you can trust, what abt me? cant i have opp sex friends i trust too? this moment, i feel like burying myself into sea of tears like i did ytd night. a frozen lines , a single tear , is harder than i ever feared . November 17, 2008
i am confused. i really dont know what i should do. fuck. thanks for all the pain you caused. sorry, that dont really cure. There is a time for departure even when there's no certain place to go. match today was fine! :D lols. yea... not bad. wednesday vs pierce. JIAYOU. imagine ourselves in finals. LOL. hhaha. omg man. i am damn pissed off now. above sentences were posted by just now. now. i am fucking angry. fuck. dont think is funny. cos seriously i dont think i can tolerate anymore. fuck i dont want write here. i will move somewhere to write everything out. fuck. November 16, 2008
hi. today was damn sian-.- swimming test. I SWAM BLOODY 2 MORE LAPS EXTRA-.- ZZZ. waste my energy lah. sucker. but still pass. if fail i am going to kill that person. lols. diving part was like shit. i dived down, no breath, come up straight dive again. LOL. okay enough of that went home, bathed ate, went again, then went home. LOL. jermaine dont know how to go mrt. LOLOLOL. okay. ahhaha then talk online lo. bloody hell sia. my head like exploding anytime. -.- pain like WHAT.-.- ZZZ. suck. tmr still got match. my muscleache haven recover. die die die. lols. bleah. grace, juna ow! you better rmb okay! i am not juna ow! you are! HAHAHA LOL okay i shall do grace's quiz next time. LOL. wanna go sleep. sian... and i realise sth man. the way benjamin talks is exactly like him. LOL. all the hahax, hahaz, lolz, lolx, tok, bah, OMG exactly man. LOL. the undying love November 15, 2008
back frm trng. it sucks for me today. ZZZ. bleah. losers. forget it. monday match. against... outram. LOL. jiayou cgirls. came home. damn tired. talked to simin on the way. omg she damn LOL!!! so funny. then then. went lot one eat macs. solo-.- then the macs ppl come and ask me is it alone, then i say ya, she ask not boring? i smile. LOL lame sia. then went home lo. zzzz. bro at home. but bathing, gone out alr. then dad came back, went out again. now i alone-.- LOL nth to do lah. want to sleep. lol. bleah bleah bleah. OH MS NG IS SO CUTE. she carried a bag pack today. SO FUNNY. LOL. AND WTH SIA. lincoln seow, keep saying I AM JEALOUS. i dont know what he refering to. LOLOLOLOLOL. November 14, 2008
LOL just read sheree's blog. she 300th post, i 348 liao. LOL HAHA. today was... OKAY. hmmm... trng. i cant wake up. cos apprently... ytd... i feel as if i didnt sleep at all. LOL toss and turn. cant sleep... maybe just thinking abt a lot of stuffs. nvm lols. then trng outdoor today. goodness-.- freaking hot. now my arm got 2 shades LOL. hahha. hmm... trng warm up, ran for 25 min. legs aching. cos was really running DAMN SLOW. is like walking. lolol. thennnn. lines..... blocking stuff. OMG man. SO TIRING... nvm.. then aiya nth much la. same old stuff. kena scolded for not setting properly. sometimes just miss-Q ma. aiya heck lah. coach ask me is it dont want be setter alr. sometimes i REALLY dont want be okay. but came to think of it, i came fmss just cos of this. how can i give up. go on lo. aiya i also dont know. very tired. after trng, went home. bathed. went for the workshop thingy. freaking boring i tell you-.- charis and me were like talkinggggg. i stoning sometimesss. LOL. and sarah was busy copying notes. i guess lyanne also stoning. maybe she listening, but dont understand. LOL. like almost all are jc ppl. we only sec1s-.- BLEAH. and got one nus girl behind us. KEEP TALKING AND TALKING-.- bloody hell. 'SO NICE!' 'I CRASHED ONE BEFORE TOO!' ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. as if i want to know. then i keep TSK-ING. and SHHH-ING. LOL!! hahah cnt stand it. then......... went to walk walk. explore the stuff. went home with charis. mrt damn lot of ppl-.- and got one bloody man. he frm navy i think. FREAKING HELL. ASK ME DAMN LOT OF QUESTIONS YOU KNOW. FUCK.-.- he frm mrt, keep staring at me alr lah!!! ZZZ. then i alight at cck. then he also. then he ask me, frm what sch. i say hua fei wei li. cos i thought is dont know who la. then i speak chinese. then. OMG ASK DAMN LOT OF QUESTIONS!!!!!!! ask i councillor not, sec what, everyday need the tie is it, ZZ!!! NONE OF HIS FREAKING BUSINESS RIGHT. ask ask ask. -.- OH and i saw cheryl twice today, came home frm trng, and came home frm the workshop LOL. trng tmr. 8 to 12... hais. tired. tired. seriously DAMN tired alr. bye. wow. great actors indeed. mediacorp missed out them. poor fellows. what can i do now? i have tried my best. if you did that on purpose. i guess nth left for me to say and do alr. whats the point of talking to you everytime, when you are not with me? you dont know the pain at all. is just so unbearable. i dont feel like the past anymore. not anymore... November 13, 2008
today was a total bored-ness. ZZZ woke up at 11 plus today. no one at home. so use com. played my gameboy:O!!!! i found it somehow while ransacking my cupboards. LOL HAHA. so play play play. OMG alr 4 plus going 5. :O! i haven eat lunch. then mum called, bought me lunch and i ate. maybe is not lunch. is considered dinner. LOL. then ah..... a while ltr i go watch show. SO SAD. LOL. but nvr cry like SOMEONE. ahahha. tmr trng 8 to 12. HAIS. sian. bye the day when i found happiness, is the day i saw you. November 12, 2008
yoyo! match today was fine:D won 2-0. not bad not bad. kind of thrash. jiayou girlssss!:D:D our target by mr lim was finals. CAN DO IT!:D jyjy! okay went home after that. with jocelyn and esther again HAAH LOL they are so funny. erm ya. then...... went to meet grace. SHE IS OMG-LY GAY. LOL HAHAHA we had so much fun there. LOL we saw BIRDNEDETTE! HAHAH SO FUNNY and she wanted her signature. OMG RIGHT! hhahah. so funny there. :D:D hello&byebye ROCKSSS BIG TIME:D:D:D hhahah. then went homeee. maybe tmr meeting her again. and zhen yi:D:D hahahas. chatttt:) okay i go sleep. headache. but i seems happy LOL! bye yoyo. lols. match ltr on. jiayou cgirlsss. shout shout shout:) ya. so sian now. okay. going out soon. maybe meeting grace ltr :) chat hahaha so sian so sian. and the stupid lincoln called me WHORE-.- WTH LAH. ZZZ. nvm alamak. i go liao lah. so sian here-.- November 11, 2008
okay i deleted one post i JUST posted. i think going to show it to carissa and some other ppl only. i was bloody pissed. okay. not WAS , i AM.-.- I DONT GET IT. why are we acting this way when we are not suppose to. fuck her. dont get into this matter please. i dont want to hate you. but why are you like that. you are nice. you are my friend. but why must you get yourself into this matter. forget it-.- hi. i am bored. seriously-.- tmr match again. omgggg. nvm. today damn shiok. sleep until 11? ya. nth much lah. i got nth to dooooooooooo. okay wait i want post a pic i took frm zhenyi's blog:X  omg cool or what. lols. i miss them so much:( oh well. bye.carissaaaa dont get affected la:) lax a bit. talk to me if got probs! cos i sure got probs to tell you also. lols! ahha. ok. happy happy:D closest person hurts you the deepest. i guess its true. November 10, 2008
yo. came back frm match. won 2 to 0. okay sorry if i played horribly. and i was scared like mad. nvm next match is. wednesday... vs jurong i think. jiayou c girlsss... took bus with the sec1s.... then me, jocelyn(how to spell), esther alighted at amk station there. then take mrt lo. ya. sian... tmr will be a boring day somehow... glenn took my tpc. so SIAN. bleah. oh yah. and my sms for last month was bloody 1868. the highest record i can get. suck. yea plasters are cool. but they are useless. they can plaster over wounds but still leaving scars. they can plaster all wounds. but not in the heart. fuck. i hate you to the effing core. get out of my life. FUCK. bitch FUCK. why must you do that to me? i just dont get it. is it fun to do that? November 9, 2008
Random quiz Name something that made you frown today? eh... dont know What were you doing at 12:00 this afternoon? online-ing What were you doing 1 hour ago? online-ing What is something you will never forget? a lot of stuff. most impt is the everlasting friendship with grace!:D What was the last thing you said aloud? 很亮 leh! How many different things did you drink today? 3 :O What was the last thing you bought? bbt:D hahah What was the last gift you got? dont know. wait. i think... dont know LOLS What color is your room? white Where do you keep your change? Wallet la. What is the weather going to be like tomorrow? i hope it will be.... cloudy. and not sunny like now-.- What are you excited about? tmr's MATCH!:O Are you very random? Yes. :D Do you want to cut your hair? yes. i was talking abt it with mom this morning. What would you do if you got pregnant? dots. Do you giggle a lot? HAHA dont know i think not giggle. laugh more. :D Do you watch Hannah Montana? yesh. but i forgot what is it abt. lols Do you have plans tomorrow? wake up, go match. come back, online, slp. Are you ticklish? LOL? wth is this. Are you typically a jealous person? Yes... sort of muahah. Are you gay? Yes, very very gay.(grace's ans) HAHA we are very very gay ppl. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "c"?(name 3 ppl can? LOL) Celestine, Charis, Carissa Who's the 1st person on your received calls list? mom-.- she was testing her phone this morning. LOLS What's the 5th text in your inbox? jermaine's msg telling us what time, when where to meet for tmr. and asking us to jiayou. LOL Do you chew on straws? Nope Do you have curly hair or straight? more of curly. What is the next concert you're going to? dont know? What's the biggest disappointment to you lately? cant set the ball high enough. How many times have you sworn today? whats sworn? LOL. What were you doing at midnight last night? Trying to sleep. ( grace's ans too.) OMG we are trying to sleep ytd night. we should have talked on the phone-.- LOL What was the last thing you ate? Lunch Have you seen the movie "Dirty Dancing"? huh. Is success in your future? how i know. When was the last time you copied someone? copy what. Are you obsessed over something right now? Yes. Do you have a nickname? think so? Are you a heavy sleeper? think so. When was the last time you used a skateboard? i never use one before-.- When was the last time you said I love you to a parent? dont know. wait. i think i nvr say before :O OMG. Was today a good day? fine. boring What song are you listening to right now? dont know what song. frm carissa's blog. LOL How’s school going? sch is okay with kns. but now... sch holss... Are you upset about life right now? yea.. most of the time man. What time is it? 4.23pm What are you going to do this second? The quiz. If someone doesn't like you, it's usually because: i suck. Last Saturday night you? i forgot what i did. Favorite scent? nice nice smell. What's your ideal weekend like: out out out. with yt and yf:D/kns/grace,zy and friends What do you look for most in a boyfriend/girlfriend: a lot of things:X erm yea trust.. responsible? okay that sounds SO wrong If something amazing happens to you, how many people know: dont know Every year, how do you like to spend the holidays: erm. revise for next year. strive harder. meet up with friends. out with friends. movies!:D What do you look forward to most each year? AWESOME results. Do you currently have feelings for someone? yah. what feelings you talking abt? LOL. i have feelings for maxene:D HAHAHA :X Can you keep a secret? think so. How many phone conversations do you have a day: none. seriously... i prefer keeping quiet to talking o.o Your dream house is: okay. is a big wow. but i dont care:) one big big bungalow with swimming pool. OMGAWD. like what i saw on the way back frm hougang. :O How would your friends describe you? how i know. maybe a retarded person. How do you feel about Valentine's Day? LOLS. dont know. What body of water are you most drawn to: whats body of water? sorry lah, my geog fail what-.- When was the last time you shaved your legs? HAHAH i dont-.- but maybe someone who answer this question will faster go shave.. hor grace:) What were you doing this morning at 8? Sleeping What were you doing 10 minutes ago? Still doing the quiz. Are you angry at anyone right now? no... not really. dont piss me off by saying someone i hate lah-.- The last person to say they loved you? i dont know. forgot. okay wait. grace or yf:D HEHE. i think is not grace. LOLS. Do you have any famous relatives? HAHA NO! Have you ever been searched by the cops? no! How is your hair? super duper ugly. What have you eaten today? noodles. ( i am not like grace. ATE a food called 'yeah.' HAHAH What did you do Friday night? erm. came back frm trng. bathe, online, slp Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach? yea. and others too:) Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? NO-.- What goes best with soft drinks? more and more soft drinks What did you do two nights ago? forgot. -.- LOL. eh wait friday night. same lah. came back frm trng. blah blah Are any of your great-grandparents still alive? i dont know? LOLS. Where do you keep your money? Piggy bank/ bank/ wallet. When is your next party? dont know. What was the weather like on your birthday? sunny i think. i rmbed is a trng day. and is outdoor trng. LOL Would you make out with anyone on your top friends list? no.. all are girls, hello.. What’s your favorite song at the moment? CRUSH! Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? i am in one:D and i hope it will last until 3 months ltr?:) What color are your eyes? black? What's the last thing someone said to you? Grace ; ♥ ♥ says: Whad! you think is aids meh! disease. ohmygay, shit that show influence me. Grace ; ♥ ♥ says: LOL. What is the total call time on your phone? where to check? LOLS What messaging system do you use? singtel Do you have a dog? nope. my mom wont allow. partly cos of bro's asthma. which is.. so many years ago. oh and maybe cos of my experience:) right kns? haha Do you own a stereo that costs more than 100 dollars? i dont think so. What is one thing you question? why? Where do you see yourself in 4 years? how i know. maybe die alr leh? LOL Have you ever hiked up a mountain? no. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid? HAHAH SHEREE. this question reminds me of her. HAHA erm... i dont know. Are you married? nope LOL. LOL. Are you the oldest of your siblings? no. Who are you talking to right now? Grace. hello&byebye pte ltd Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ . ___12___, -Your name- 1. What's the color of your shirt? Blue - Our romance is over Red - Our affair is over White - I'll join the monastery Black - I dislike you Green - Our horoscope doesn't match Grey - You're a pervert Yellow - I'm selling myself Pink - Your nostrils are insulting Brown - The mafia wants you No shirt - You're a loser Other - I'm in love with your sister 2. Which is your birth month? January - That night February - Last year March - When your dwarf bit me April - When I tripped on sesame seeds May - First of May June - When you put cuffs on me July - When I threw up August - When I saw the shrunken head September - When we skinny dipped October - When I quoted Santa November - When your dog ran amok December - When I changed tennis shoes 3. Which food do you prefer? Tacos - In your apartment Pizza - In your camping car Pasta - Outside of Chicago Hamburgers - Under the bus Salad - As you ate enchilada Chicken - In your closet Kabob - With Paris Hilton Fish - In women's clothing Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation Lasagna - At the mental hospital Hot dog - Under a state of trance None of the above - With George Bush and his wife 4. What's the color of your socks? Yellow - Hit on Red - Insult Black - Ignore Blue - Knock out Purple - Pour syrup on White - Carve your initials into Grey - Pull the clothes off Brown - Put leeches on Orange - Castrate Pink - Pull the toupee off Barefoot - Sit on Other - Drive out 5. What's the color of your underwear? Black - My best friend White - My father Grey - Bill Clinton Brown - My fart balloon Purple - My mustard soufflé Red - Donald Duck Blue - My avocado plant Yellow - My penpal in Ghana Orange - My Kid Rock-collection Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper None - My John F. Kennedy-statue Other - The crazy monk 6. What do you prefer to watch on TV? Scrubs - ManO.C.- Emotional One Tree Hill - Open Heroes - Frostbitten Lost - High House - Scarred Simpsons - Cowardly The news - Mongolic Idol - Masochistic Family Guy - Senile Top Model - Middle-class None of the above - Ashamed 7. Your mood right now? Happy - How awful I've felt Sad - How boring you are Bored - That Santa doesn't exist Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage Depressed - That we're cousins Excited - That there is no solution to this. Nervous - The middle-east Worried - That your Honda sucks Apathetic - That I did a sex-change Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men Overjoyous - That I'm open Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks 8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom? White - Your ring Yellow - Your love letters Red - Your Darth Vader-poster Black - Your tame stone Blue - The couch cushions Green - The pictures from LA Orange - Your false teeth Brown - Your contact book Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs Purple - Your old lottery coupons Pink - The cut toenails Other - Your memories from the military service 9. The first letter of your first name? A/B - Your photo C/D - The oil stocks E/F - Your neighbour Martin G/H - My virginity I/J - The results of your blood-sample K/L - Your left ear M/N - Your suicide note O/P - My common sense Q/R - Your mom S/T - Your collection of butterflies U/V - Your criminal record W/X - David's tricot outfits Y/Z - Your grades from college 10. The last letter in your last name? A/B - Always will remember C/D - Never will forget E/F - Always wanted to break G/H - Never openly mocked I/J - Always have felt dirty before K/L - Will tell the authorities about M/N - Told in my confession today about O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about S/T - Get sick when I think of U/V - Always will try to forget W/X - Am better off without Y/Z - Never liked 11. What do you prefer to drink? Water- Our friendship Beer - Senility Soft drink - A new life as a clone Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo Milk - The apartment building Wine - Cocaine abuse Cider - A passionate interest for mice Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations Mineral water - Embarrassing rash Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism Whisky - To ruin the second world war Other - To hate the Boston Celtics 12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation? Thailand - Warm regards USA - Best regards England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail Spain - Go and drown yourself China - Disgusting regards Germany - With ease Japan - Go burn Greece - Your everlasting enemy Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard Egypt - Fuck off now France - In pain Other - Greetings to your freaky family dear grace, (HAHAHA) I don't really know how to tell you this, but I will join the monastery. I think I realized it last year outside of Chicago and I saw you sit on the crazy monk. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand that your Honda sucks. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I always have felt dirty before a new life as a clone . Greetings to your frog leonard, Adeline ahahaha! ok that quiz doesnt make sense man. LOL. HAHAHA laugh out loud. LOL. nth much today. bleaaahhhh. tmr competition! i am nervous. lols... scared. no confidence. how how how. lols... b girls and c boys today. hope they win! jyjy! okay going do grace's super long quiz ltr:D November 8, 2008
yo. came back frm trng and ah gong house. his bday today. ya. trng was okay. erm. ya lah. dont know got what thing special leh. we were punished several times. monday u-13 first match! huayi. jiayou cgirlsss. tmr. bgirls and cboys. wanted to go. but bgirls so early. cboys confirm win, plus so late. so not going. my mom also wants me go out with her. so ya... not going lah. nth much. bleaahhh.... everything hurts November 7, 2008
yo at first today was very boring. very sian. very emo-ish. then i reached home, online talk until i happy. LOLS okay trng today. 12 to 6. we leared the tables and chairs for 1 hours also. LOLS. cos the stupid NUT got prob. lols. so trained.............. very tired. went opp buy bbt. lungs i want my sodaaaa. lols. then went home with esther and jocelyn. yupp. talked a lot on the way. oh and theres this one woman, dont know talk abt what, then suddenly says, THE SUN IS STILL UP. then me and jocelyn, *TURNS* look at the sky. LOLS. then i look at her, IS THERE ANY SUN? then she shakes her head then we laughed like crap. LOL. serious la! 7 plus alr leh! OMG. theres only LIGHT. no sun. LOLSSS! hahaha erm. then reached home. bathed all that lo.... then.... ya. okay bro came back, buying me dinner. so yah. talked to some ppl online. trng tmr 2 to 5. must reach at 130. lols.. ah hah. here comes the fun. me and charis tagged like crazy on carissa's blog. MUAHAH. we rock, pebbles and stones. LOL. sorry lah. my way of distressing. lols.... to leeyufan- surri if my moods are swinging these few dayssss LOLS. yah i will TRY not to give up lo. aiya. nvm. bye loves:D to grace- ahhaha why ant i have moodswings! HAHA. i am human too. eh no... i am a kitty. LOLS. HAHAH and wait! i admire your bro's vball skills. LOLS and your bro is byebyedog. since you are byebyekitty. hahah! yupp. idolise them. muahha. LOLS. hello and byebye! to lyanne- LOLS of cos! plasters ROCK. toothpaste also uh! LOLS HAHAHAH. strawberry too!:D:D agree? i love you, i simply just do. November 6, 2008
whoo. i am fine now. lols. haha. okayyyy. went to watch match. mmm... yah. then went macs to eat with yutong, rich and car. took a looooongggg bus ride with them. and is FREAKING COLD. LOLS hahahaha. i cant even type msg lo. lols. hahah. hmmm okay oh yah, b girls lost... 2-0 yea.. oh and i saw weicheng. whoo. i saw him on redsports too. omg jumped freaking high. LOLS. haha erm.. reached home, no one at home. lols..... i still rushed until like what lols. WAH. then i want go toilet mah. 1 hour ride leh! i drank coke plus h-two-o. THEN I CHIONGED to on the light. see one black black thing on the wall. then OMG OMG MOTH MOTH. LOLS. then i off the light, chionged to the other toilet. LOLS. then go back kitchen, take pic of it. LOLOLOL HAHAHA. FIRST TIME SEE SO HUGE ONE LEH! PALM SIZE. can you imagine. OMG. then i dont dare go take rice. cos is kitchen. so i wait until mom comes back. HAHA. then ah, i tell her, she says, YAH I KNOW! I COOKING THAT TIME AH, THE MOTH FEI LAI FEI QU.( fly here and there) HAHAH SO FUNNY. then i go back room chat. then suddenly she, AHMEI AH, DONT COME OUT FRM YOUR ROOM. then off the lights, close the door. then i HUH!!! WHERE WHERE! LOLS. scared what.... LOLOLOL. haha. then i stuck in my room lo. black black. cnt on the lights, only got my tpc light. then a while ltr, she, YAY get out liao. LOL! hahah! she so funny. then go eat lo. lols. nth much. tmr trng 12-6 outdoor? or indoor? oh yah indoor. LOLS. okay lah. cgirls jyjy!! must ping ahhhhhh. second last trng liao. 3 more days? LOLS. jiayou :) fucked up ppl. childish. bitches. lameos. brainless. even ppl who SEEM older, dont have brains too. apparently, i can say that they haven grown up? pathetic. i pity them. haiyo.. tsk. tsk.. ppl who have brains, will know what is wrong and right, mature or immature. lets see. maybe their minds are still at kindergarten. dont know study so much got what fucking use. dont know how to apply. pitiful... tags- grace- hahas. oh i see. :D you also must have good cliques in nhhs:D must. hehehe. or you can always stick to meee. muahah. selfish i know. hahah. LOL. hmm.... moodswings. sometimes just feel very bad and sad lo. what can i do. ehhe:D yutong- ahhaha. letss seee. i got enough. hahah. cheer up man. fenny- hahaha. no lah. only if i angry, disapoointed, sad. if not i very nice one okay. :P HAHA. :D:D carissa- LOL! WHATS WRONG WITH MY SKIN. LOLS hahaha. cos before that the skin, a lot of ppl cnt click tagboard so i change to no navi one lo. easier. LOLS. kibum's face:D:D hehe. okay fine fine. moodswingssss. pms. wdv. just not very happy lols. loveeee yah too:D November 5, 2008
trng was okay. not very tired. i dont really feel like posting. post finish this fucking thing, i go sleep. everything is so shit today. i realised sth, everytime bad mood, is tgt. one of us, then affect all. i didnt expect you to be happy all day, but at least, dont give me attitude? thats all. i nvr want you to buy anything, treat me or wdv. i just want you to be happy. is it very hard? i dont know whats going on, confused? me too. fucked up? me too. November 4, 2008
back frm queenstown library, with kns:D it was funny there. cool. somehow brightened up my day. lols. oh, we kena complained thrice-.- LOLS. we keep laughing, then got all the weird weird sounds. LOLS. then one freaking man go tell librarian, then the librarian come and say-.- LOLS then after that, the other man come say, you want study, stay, dont want, want to laugh and talk, go out-.- WHATEVER SIA. LOLS. he himself so noob. LOLS read some story books, then checking dictionary every second. LOLS. one storybook is G.stilton wan. LOLOLOLOL. hahaha. then we make all kinds of sound, charis very buay song, go tear the paper DAMN LOUD, then the buaysong face DAMN FUNNY. LOLS. then sheree, go use the pen, tiak the table. SUPER NOISY. then i laughed until bao, so me and sheree went somewhere hide and laughed dao SIAO. HAHHAHA then we, finally, okay. so we went back sit. WE HAVEN REACH THE TABLE, sheree started laughing, so i chiong back the bookshelves there, LAUGHED DAO SIAO. then go back again. BUT i see the man's facw, I KEEP LAUGHING LOL. so ya, do some work, they photocopied some cookbooks. for design proj. hahah so yupp. OH OH! sheree's flat's sole COME OUT WHILE SHE WAS ON THE WAY HERE. then she plucked out the whole sole. LOL! HAHAHAHA. DAMN FUNNY. the wayshe dragged her feet. LOLS. she dont know why these few days so suay. LOLS. sooo.. we went... one macs, they called it turtle macs???? LOLS. they say got turtles one, but i didnt see any. so we ate. talked abt childhood stuff again. HAHA. so funny. at first, i went buy apple pie, then deb and lyanne bought ice cream. then sheree and carissa got tempted, so went to buy also, then left charis, in the end, she also bought. LOLS hahahaha. OH YAH! me and lyanne sucked lollipops on the way to the macs. SO DAMN GODLY. LOLS. strawberry flavour one leh. LOLS. hers is.... GREEN APPLE. and they are THINKING SICK:D hehehehe. LOLS. went home after macs. took 105 all the way to je. yupp then took mrt with lyanne. reached home. parents saw the ring on my neck which is on my necklace. LOLS. yah, so father say', i very ai sui liao( want pretty)', then i -.- then mom was alr going out!!! at the door there alr!!! OUTSIDE HOUSE ALR LEH!!!! then he suddenly add in, nvr wear those, pai2(one big piece of stuff) wear RING. THEN I OH SHIT OMG. then my mom alr wanted to go, heard RING, walked back again, say ?! who give one, I SAY NO LAH!!! ARIES BUY ONE LAH, they sell the whole thing-.- OMG PHEW. then my mom still WHERE WHERE WHERES THE RING. OMG I AM SO IRRITATED. LOLS lucky she went off liao. so yupp. i am addicted to crush! LOLS... today lo. in the bus nth to do, borrowed lyanne's mp3. listen omg so addictive, now come home still listening. LOLS... tmr trng 1 to 630. KILL ME MAN. pfft .. but jiayou c girls!!! 6 more days only!!! JIAYOU. we shall meet our targets jermaine! work hard!!!!! only got one u-13!:D pingggg! why do i keep running away from the truth, all i think abt is you you got hypnotized, so mesmerised.. |
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