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Adeline!, 12021995I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard
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January 31, 2009
okay, i just took this from kityarn's blog. I MISS THIS ROOM LIKE MADNESS. damn right man, p6 that time. ms sam was like nagging there, nono sitting down there and scold us. while we standing up, saying our discipline blah blah. omg i still can rmb. and i was sitting right under her nose. just in front of the table man. OMG. i think this is even bigger than my classroom now la. zzz. oh i know the colour of the door is disgusting, cos the principal, apparently, doesnt have any sense of colours. ya. so sad. bird-the-nerd changed a lot of stuffs in there la please-.- made me dont want go back. see the court yard, think what. kindergarten ah. lololol. anw. i miss this room :( suddenly went kityarn's blog, saw this. ahhh. sai. regretted didnt go la uh. sian. 6d 6d 6d. :( anw i got a lot of work to do. i dont wanna do, but still have to do though. and I CANT BLOODY STAND CHI CHER ANYMORE LA. -.- she is so pekcek. so kp. so irritating! omg la. and she is driving me nuts. nucking futs. zzzz. teachers are driving us crazy. principal is worse. i seriously hate this la. January 28, 2009
damn sian. tired._. tired._. headache. zzz. damn shit. today was okayyyy. i think. very tired. LOL. and i think i am suffering from stm. my meory is damn bad these few days. like omg-.- i cant even rmb what i did or wdv. lols die-.- tmr got hist test. hope is easy! :D please please please. i hope everything is alright. January 26, 2009
hey ppl. today was boring, went to visit my grandma. so loooonnnnggggg nvr see her. then... saw cousins. not close to them so nvr talk. went my dad's godmom's house. didnt play cards there though. cos like tired... decided not to play, only second bro played. eledest bro was slping-.- i watching tv. until wanna slp-.- LOL. eat and eat like pig. gosh. i think going gain weight soooonn. lols. went ah ma house after that. ate dinner, went home. now here i am, blogging, ahaha. damn bored la. very long nvr post properly alr. a lot of homeworks, didnt even have time to post. now i left, zhou ji, sci ubd proj, history family tree thingy, and eng newspaper article thingy. ya. is alot-.- how can i finish everything when i am out tmr. zzz. zzz. OH JUST NOW, carissa's mom talked to me. i damn pekcek my gawdddd-.- shant write out the whole convo-.- lolols. hhahaa. okaayyyy, thats all. bye! HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL LOL! okok. YAY! hahaha. new year:D hope everyone happy ah. tmr going relatives house. wear new clothes, shoes, HAPPY. LOL but confirm boring la-.- zzz. anw, yea. byebye, a lot more work to do! :D byebye i am falling into another maze of love. January 23, 2009
yo. today was alrighttt. dismissed at 11am. then went to take my specs, then lot one to shop for clothes. lolols. bought 2 tops. heh. is nice!:D i loveee them thennn. went home. did my maths. I FINISHED ALR. WOOTS HAHA ahahahhahha SO HAPPY YKNOW. LOLOL. now i needa do zhou ji, gong han, mocking bird, projects. lalala. hais. oh we won peirce. heh 25 to 8 and 25 to 4. hmmmm how i wish i can have loads of money, then i wont be worried abt overseas trip. i hope i can go with my friends. i wanna go. i will def work hard. thank you grace, yutong, eleanor, jermaine, simin, yingmin, alex, cassandra, esther, jocelyn, carissa, sheree, deborah, charis, lyanne, lungs, and others who were there when sth happened. really glad to have friends like you all. tags- cassandra- hello. thanks(: grace- hahahaha. ahnah! emopartnerrr. emo tgt(: you ah, dont know why emo also. cheer up yo!:D good morning!:D HAHA loveeee:D sheree- haha yea. (: yep. thanks a lot:D fenny- yoyoyo!!!(: charis- yea. nvm. thanks a lot charis:D carissa- yea. sure. thanks. i dont blame you la uhhhhhh. :D deb- YEA! must try! you also! we try tgt! hahaha. cheer up yo!:D jermaine- LOL. HAHA. 'mole' LOLOL. January 21, 2009
i dont know how to explain, everything happens in a blink. i am so scared now. is not the person whom you cant forget, rather, it is the memories that cant be forgotten. is just freaking hard to even dont think abt it. time time. i need more time! i am sorry. i really dont know what to say. i dont know what to do. give me more time, i will give you an answer soon. tags- deb- yea. you better dont emo(: haha. okayyyy yutong- mm(: thanks a lottt. January 20, 2009
sch was boring. i cant bear to leave the things behind. even thought is over. you all wont ever understand. is just too hard. sorry is just too hard. January 11, 2009
ripstic is freaking fun alrighttttt:D hahahha now i like... feel as if i am on the thingy. swaying my hips. LOL HAHAHAHAH BUT IS DAMN FUN. i didnt fall like grace, but just a bit unbalance and DROP forward and backward. LOL AHHAHA. okay me and grace mastered a little la okay. dont want say fully. ahhaha. suemae actioned in front of us:D HAHAH. sickooooo. then when she ride that thingy. her muscles pop out like anything. O: ahhhahaha. sian la can. nth to do. why am i sad? why am i angry? is no big deal. yoyoyo. damn sian la today. i am sicker today O: my nose is crazy. like dropping anytime. my eyes are tearing like madness.-.- so yea went to slp early ytd. then.. woke up at 10 plus today. did my chi hw. and then online till now. going play with grace and mae ltr on. hahaha. so cool right! :Dah, is last min plan anw. ahhaha. oh just now, i took my cup to have some water. i pour the water liao hor, wanted to drink. LOL. got bubbles one the whole surface. i was like OMG wth is that. LOL i mean plain water doesnt suppose to have bubbles right. so i pour away, then wash and use the cup again, this time round, no bubbles, so i drank. i was like omg lucky. if not i think i drank soap. LOL. but ah, i drink alr!!! now the mouth weird weird!!! like. i dont know la. is like got sth inside. LOL water poisoning. sia la. somemore i sick, taste buds spoil, wah. sian-.- okay la i go liao byebye. my feelings for you are fading . no , it's not because i fell for someone else . but plainly because , i'm just tired of waiting . so perhaps , i'll be letting you go soon . January 10, 2009
hey yo. today;s trng was rather slack i guess. cos half of the main players didnt come. so ya. i forgot what we did but oh well nvm. i only rmb i keep doing punishment today. lols. helped coach buy chicken rice. then came back, called mac delivery. LOL. AHAHHAH. cos trng we keep saying mac chicken, say until damn hungry. so we lazy go la. call delivery. used my number, so jermaine tell them the contact name is MS SEAH. LOL laugh dao siao. in the end, cant order student meal. so we canceled our orders. LOLOLOL. we talked damn long sommore. hhahahha then they asked for postal code. we dont know whats the sch;s postal code, then ask coach, coach says, 100... 1000. LOL AHHAHAHA. after kapping macs. we decided to eat kfc, if kfc cannot student meal, we call burger king. LOL. AHHAHA. so cassandra dialed, 62353535. then jermaine listen. then she was like, IS THIS KFC?! LOL. then i sang the song la, LOLOL. realised it was pizza hut, we kap the phone immediately HAHAHA. then we dont know kfc number. LOLOL. asked weijie. then called, ordered. asked if got buddy meal. they say dont have, got couple meal only. LOL. AHHAHAHAAHAHso yea, order couple meal and shrooms burger. then waited. O: while waiting, coach snatched my phone to look at the msges. gawd-.- he pulled out my hair also. wah kao!!!! then he read dao damn shiok. LOLOL. zzzzz. then kfc came, we ate. ahahhaha while watching them play. hohoho. ate alr, crumbs were everywhere, so decided to mop that part of the floor. ahhaha then we sat own there slacked, watch c boys play. ahhaha. 345, went home. damn tireddddd can. okay fell asleep again. sian... then ah reached home, no one at home. sian la. then use com. ahhh. i am sick. my nose is blocked. not sure if going sch on monday. should be going. but i feel so sick._. okay bye. January 9, 2009
yo just came out from bathing. damn shitty tired-.- worke up late this morning. zzz. ytd chionged maths like mad. sian.... then go sleep that time 11 plus going 12 la. didnt do finish though. lols. DAMN SIAN. then today, eng, sci, chi all the way. okay la. not very bad. i slept during free periods. so shiok. lols. thennnn. chi was fine today. sci.. okay... then went for trng. starts at 2 O: we were released at ard 115. lols-.- waited for some of them then go sports hall alr 145. LOL. nvr eat. wrote reflection. went down to grab sth to bite. ahhaha. training was.. fun today? ended trng by playing small court. hehehe. lols. TIRING.-.- went opp eat dinner. lols... go back to sch. thought cca booth haven close-.- in the end, packed everything liao. lols. lame. so went to find carissa they all. waited for carissa's dad for a while, but felicia offered to send me and Hui Min go clementi. yeaa. so... kind of ps her. paiseh. anw, yea chatted with them. ahhaha. the topic was rather straight foward. LOLOL OH OH. I SAW OKKY LOL. USHERING THE CARS. then he like kena shouted by the security. pityyyD: lol. saw mark and johnathan in their ncc uni. OMG CAN-.- LOL. damn weird. HAHAHA. LOL. and ohanthan was like. HELLO. lols-.- hahaha. saw joshua also, saw nigel also. ahahhaha. a lot of ppl. sian. reached home no one at home-.- now still no one. siannn. tmr trng at 8. D: until 12. damn tired. like going close my eyes. wah kao. OH CHI, WE CHANGED OUR GROUPS. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. i like that seat more la can. lols. but is okay. chi is not abt seatings. so i guess just dont careeeeee. the groupings are so wth?????? choose our own._. then zzz. argh. i dont like this cher. no opinion at all. zzz hello ppl! LOL! now in sch. free period. lols-.- then chi ltr on. damn tired can. sian. dont want post le byebye January 8, 2009
today was quite boring as usual. sleepy, as per normal. LOL. met simin, mass run. one round only-.- damn lame can. then heard from dont know who that someone from 2f signed out cos of dizziness after running that one round-.- LOL. HAHA. how to pass2.4 LOLOLOL. anw, after mass run was.... mathsss. did the algebra worksheet. ahh. whole group was confused, but after that i understood. lee chee peng explained until damn clear:D hahaha. then history. wah sian-.- she asked us to change. so we wasted the time by strolling to the toilet and spent dont know how long inside. LOLOLOL. DAMN BORING LA CAN. copy copy copy. then ah. i copy until i close my eyes. LOL. but one thing i like about her is her powerpoint damn organised. not like choe's. at least hist cher will wait a while until we finished copying, then move on, then at the end, got a summary of what we did. choe dont have lo. but then, suddenly feel as if choe is a better teacher than her la._. ah nvm. actually ALL our last year's teachers are SO MUCH better than this year's though i kind of like shamsiah and LCP. yea. but thats only 2 -.- how pathetic. last year, i like ms ng! ms chin! ms tai.. okay la. ms sheena.. okay la. mr firhad! mr chan.. okay la. JO kay la. (better than ros ho) mrs tan! mrs choe. LOL. she okay la. better than the hist cher i guess? yea. seeee. all so nice de. sian.... somemore the LCP and shamsiah also not like.. VERY nice. just acceptable. LCP wahlao, attire must be perfect can. shamsiah didnt really care abt our attire. yea. anw... back to school. after hist. went recess. DAMN HUNGRY. but ah, ate hello panda nia. then went buy notebook that chi cher wanted. -.- 3.80. so ex. after recess was lit. AHHH-.- SIAN. but ah, 15 min before bell rang, she went out a while. we were like gaming/ onlining/ doing anything else but not the work. LOL. ahhaahahhaha. then she coming up that time. we faster change back to the research lol. design. FUN. SERIOUSLY FUN. did hands on work. went for art first, pinch potting. hahahaha. so cool la! we do until dont want go for dnt. ahahha. dnt was FUN too. did the dog tag thingy, smoothened the edges and stuff. ahahhaha. LOLOL. fun daooooo:D but think abt the cafe project makes me headache. anw, design passed damn fast la. then lifeskills was damn slack. the art ppl didnt want to come up! HAHA. lols. but ros ho wasnt angry. lols. she is quite retarded though. ._. she asked us to paint the projector screen white as there is black paint on it. so she wants to cover it, BUT WTH ?! HAHA. paint on it, then ltr screened thingy, then got one patch of white thingy. AHHAHA. LOL we all laughing at her la. then she speechless. LOL! farni. LOL. then went to meet cassandra and jocelyn, then simin and jerm. went opp eat. hahha. went back sch to do the notice board and cca booth for tmr. okay la. but needa go early so... yep. went to meet mom at lot one. waited for 20 min-.- zzz. collected my specs. hohoho. damn coooool. ahhaa. went home. bathed. ate. ltr doing maths. today no hwww:D hahaa okay bye. January 7, 2009
HELLO. happy 400th post LOL. SIAN DIAO. damn sleepy-.- chi was fine. talked to ms chin on the way to classssss. AHHH. :X ahhaha. then... aiya today damn sian in class. like goin slp man-.- after sch, went clementi with carissa, sheree, lyanne and deb. yupp. ate kfc. ahahhaha. WAH LAUGHED LIKE CRAP. AHAHHAAH. CARISSA SQUEEZED CHILLI ON MY SKIRT AND TIE ACCIDENTALLY. OMG-.- cos we miixing stuffs. AHHHH. then she squeezed, PIEWWWW landed on my skirt and tie. wahhhhhhh. faster use water. LOL. HAHHA then they laughed like crap la!!! ._. nvm then went home. slept. O.O damn tired la... reached home. WAH SLACKED. LOL. super tired!!! then go bathe. come out slack again, cos i on the mrt before sleep, do the sci alr. LOL. so easy la. thennnn. nth to do except some shit stuff. got so many prjects going on alr yknow. wtf la. lit proj, design proj, dnt make the small small model, deisgn dish. what the-.- then may that time opening our cafe. AHAHHA. LOL MAN. so lame. ahahha but quite fun though. HAHAHA. yea so.-.- i planning to do finish my design proposal. but just too lazy O: OH OH still got the lit 9 mindmaps-.- I AM DYING. zzz sian-ess. i am like so dead now-.- bleah. byee what to do? January 6, 2009
yo! ytd night 1130 then sleep. wah this morning, cant get up-.- i made my hair for like, 15 min, went out late :X met simin later, LOL. paiseh. reached sch JUST NICE, like 3 more min then late liao. lols! ahhaha. then, first period, chi, teacher... :( okay la. I MISS MS CHIN SO MUCH. seriously A LOT LA. sian... soo she was like self introducing. yea, she is actually okay, but i just cant get used to it. hope i can get used to her as soon as possible mannn. then after chi went back class, SAW MS CHIN gawd-.- their class seriously looks funnnerrrrrrr:( i miss sec one classes so much now. hais. zhou zhi, cheyenne now not in our class, nat went acsi, so like... 3 ppl out of hmt. so siannnn. now my grp left me okky and xiu wei. 3 ppl. and jaime's grp wanted cher to change the seating arrangements. siannnn. okay chapel was.. alright? nth much though. ah okky just went online. LOL. hahaha. anw, yea chapel was fine, cheryl was slping away in front of us, and i spotted that fpc got white hair!!! :D ahahhaha. went for maths after that. sian la...... ohoh, half way of maths, someone's hp was like ringing. DAMN FUNNY. i thought was mine, but cos my phone 24 hrs silent la. sooo. yea:D then shamsiah just nice stood there, is like, between, me and carissa, sheree and charis, meipeng and jaime there. then she stand in the middle, going in front that time, meipeng knew was hers, wanted to take out and off it, then suddenly shamsiah turned behind, then meipeng like chua tio. DAMN FUNNY. the facial expression. AHAHHAHAHA. then meipeng faster let go, then like WHERE? WHERE?! LOL! i was laughing away. then shamsiah tell meipeng check her pockets, then she take out handphone, LOL. then she act like she dont know her hp ringing. DAMN FUNNY. AHhAHAHA but in the end nvr confiscate i think. hahahahaha. okay then group work. recess was fine. sci was-.- LOL. go sheree's blog for more info. i only rmb abt the box thingy, must guess whats inside, then damn funny. LOL. got one is soya bean, i pour out. LOL wanted to give lungs! LOL! cos he wanted soya bean. then in the end nvr la, we throw at each other. LOL. then got one is metal thingy, long long one, paperclip unfold one, then carissa shake until one come out. DAMN LOL. HAHA. ohoh!!! then the rosalind ho damn idiot, ask us when her lesson ends, form teacher dont know this kind of things, how pathetic is that. lols. then that time she asked was 1120. then i just shout, 1130 end alr!!! LOL. then she dont know got hear not, then she asked in front ppl, is it 12 25? i shout again, nono!!! 1215!!! LOL. HAHAHAH. ka jiao her DAMN FUN LA. then she talking, me and carissa were like, smiling and laughing, cos we want make rosalind ho, cos sumay told carissa rosalind ho dont like ppl who laugh in her class, then we purposely smile, WAH LAO. then carissa make me laugh until i cannot control. LOL. then she suddenly, ' is there any problem there? if not why are you all laughing?' then we gei gei look behind at deb, lyanne, sheree and charis they all. AHHAHAHAHAHAH. then she says, cos if you all laugh, i will wonder whats wrong with my outfit, like nvr button or what, THEN WE LAUGHED EVEN MORE. AHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. LIKE WTH. outfit. AHAHHAHAHAHA. then she thought we laughing with her, but we are not! we are laughing at her. HAHAHAAHHA. LOL! eng was BORINGGGG. chong keep smiling at me, i dont know whats her problem. oh maths!!! i forgot, ms ng came our class. shes so cute. :D she today suddenly slap my arm. softly la, then say, must learn from ms lee ah! she is the best maths teacher! HHAHAH. LOL. i chua tio. OH history was BORING-.- the teacher kinda sucks. she ended the lesson by giving us diagnostic test. which i will fail terribly, but maybe not only me, whole class? except the smart asses. :D okay i go liao. byebye. sucha long post. January 4, 2009
yo peep! changed skin. ahahha. random luh. nth to do actually. damn sian. afternoon went... order specs. ahhaha. i cant find the picture of it. so yea. behind is straight de sia. LOL. wanted to go art gallery by my art teacher, in the end, not enough time, so went homee. used com lo. nth to do at all. except the shitty design work-.- i cant seems to have the mood to do. LOL. ahahha. anw, yea, posting the zhenyi's bday party pictures soon after she sent me all. ahhaa okay bye. :D tags cassanda- yep ahhaha:D grace- ahahha tyty:D LOL si tiko. wow, tmr got no chinese, how great can that be? zzz and there's lit tmr, pe-.-, eng and maths and gonna see ros ho-.- what a great day waiting for me tmr. still got trng afterwards. cool-.- okay byeee. January 3, 2009
yo!!! today's trng was OKAY? i guess... met simin at clementi interchange, then took bus there, damn lot of ppl didnt go. so left 6 sec 2s, and the new sec 1s. yep. mopped the floor at first. OMG sports hall is freaking big? nono, is high, climbed the stairs until like omg. tiring. then started to train. i forgot what we did. but yea nvm, service, i cant bloody serve over, i dont know why also. seriously man. sadded. anw, i learnt fang4 qiu O: nvr had the chance to do it, cos i am too short-.- zzz. o must jump and fang4. lols. after trng, went anchor point to eat kfc with simin and alex(: saw bgirls, yep. went walk ard a while, and took 198 to jurong east. went lot one to find grace, sue mae and kit yarn, bought one huge eeyore and small tiger for zhen yi. ahhaha. and i went home to bathe! and went her house. muahha. long time no chat, we chatted so happily tgt. hahahah. oh we watched some dvd there. forgot the name :X yea our eyes were like glued to the tv, cos is so damn exciting. HAHA. LOL!! then we went downstairs to play vball. saw lots of cats, and went to rawr at them. LOL! scare them away, in the end, one of the cats came my watch there and dont know do what to it! ._. yep, so play play play. the ball is damn hard :X haha. beach vball. the ball rolled to the road, suemae the great went to chase it, haha nth happened, second time, roll there, under the bus, didnt burst. phew, under the taxi, haven too. in the end, one stupid mercidez? wdv, drove on top of it, and went BOMP. LOL. and the car drove away!!! O:!!!! they saw it la. zzz. then ya, one big hole, and deflated ball. like what we used this morning to do the shadow spiking. LOL. sat down there for a while, to think whats the reason. LOL. cos the ball wasnt zhen yi's. was zhenyi's sis's friend. LOL! ahahhahahah. so we decided to 'lost' it. LOL! ahahahahha. damn funny. decided to act as if we forgot to take it, left it there, and kena stolen. was damn hell funny, LOLOL. so yea, reached her house, ate dinner, suddenly zhen yi was like, WHERES THE BALL?! LOL! HAHAHHAHAH then her mom was like, go go go find! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!! we rushed down. LOL MAN. we didnt find the 'lost' ball, but we went to take pics. LOL! stayed quite long downstairs. HAHAHA. LOL! then we went up, standing outside, thinking what to say, in the end, her mom saw us from inside and asked us in, LOL. ate cake.. and went home... yea... cake was nice(: ahhaha. anw, after we left, zhenyi told her sis and mom the truth, omg i feel so gulity now, like seriouslyyyyy. O: sorry zhenyi. ahahah yep. sucha long day. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO: ZHENYI YUELING ELEANOR DESMOND SOH though i know some of them dont come here. but yep:D ahhaha had fun today. yea, thats all. byeee January 2, 2009
hello. first day of schoolll. (: took my time cos glenn not coming with me alr. haha, so yea, traffic jam-.- reached sch just nice. finally found lyanne they all, settled down then.. blah blah. attire checked-.- bleah. my tie was alr up. ros ho still say i ah lian-.- shen jing bing. and say my hair very untidy. LOL. ahhaa. is like that la._. then talks and talks.. zzz. sit until butt cramp. ahahah went PA room for talk after recess, was late. LOL. mr ow nagged, zzz. and mr lim shouted shat-up! in a zao xia voice. DAMN FUNNY. LOL ahhahaahahaha. anw, yea. today was BORING... zzz. class comittee is uppp. chairman is matthias lum(: deputy... ... Hui Min:D 2 class caps are carissa and nigel! :D ahahha. then IT rap... i forgot :X thean yian.. and? thomas. ya ya. LOL. NE ambassdor is sarah. HAHA. LOL yea. and i sitting with carissa! :D hahaha. so sian. i hope monday will be better. like serious la. so boring. tmr got trng, 8 to 12 plus, i dont want go. i dont want. zzz. okay bye. oh ya, i saw bryan danni at bus interchange just now! :D ahhaha. nvr really say anything. so yea.. so long then see him again. hais. okay bye. is not what you think. January 1, 2009
hello. omg, tmr is school. cool uh. i am quite excited la, but then quite disappointed with the timetable? lols.-.- hahah. anw, was revising some stuff just now, until i fell aslp. LOL. doing design ltr on. siannnnnnnn._. tmr's timetable is, 2 periods of eng, 2 periods of ros ho-.-, 5 periods of chi. hohoho. thats alllll. sorry but i have to. |
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